1st day of fasting and i missed sahur. 

am not feeling well since yesterday and all i had the whole day was wendy's baked potato for lunch and mee goreng for dinner which i didnt finish.

will try to stay strong and fast today.

told sister to wake me up but she didnt. hope she and family didnt wake up late too, or i'll get mad for not waking me up after telling her. 

but what im definitely mad at is my father.

he dont provide me with daily food. not even the money.

but i offered to buy him dinner yesterday so he placed his order.

bought at 8, 11pm still havent eat.

checked just now, the food is still there.

what makes me pissed is, he wasted the food and my money. 

and, just left it in the kitchen, still wrapped and in the plastic bag.

not even an initiative to put in the fridge before he left for work.

i'd probably lost my father too when i lost my mum.