2022 has been quite a ride for me. 2 major things happened. 1. new house i never knew i could purchase a house of my own. it was one boring day while being quarantined due COVID, i saw someone on IG viewing house. he was younger than me, also single. i went to HDB website to see my eligibilty and got shocked that i was able to purchase a resale flat under the orphan scheme. enquired on the HLE. went viewing without an agent. engaged an agent. more viewings 5 views later, i got hooked at this Fernvale home. till now i couldnt understand why i was so ready to go for this particular unit. the previous units always have something that i dont quite like. the only thing i didnt like the way the deal was done is that i wasnt given much time to think about it so, 5 months flew by since the start and i finally own a home. reno was a slow and steady one since i wasnt in a rush it was quite a headache as i didnt have a concrete plan on how i wanted my home to look. also on a tight budget 30th dec 2022. the day i start staying on my own a new adventure. excited, but still scared at the same time. im just glad that ive met someone who can spend time with me at my new home occasionally. 2. love life first few months of 2022 was rocky i was starting 2022 alone. first time im starting the year being a single person since 2015. disliked it. felt lonely. went astray. got a scare. tried to confide in L again. he returned. i was made to believe that we could start fresh. i was wrong. he left again. not knowing if he will ever return since we agreed to start 2022 without each other. met W few days before my birthday. he is a godsent. he made me feel like someone actually cared for me too other than my family. he seemed out of my league but i enjoyed his company alot. for someone whom i just met, we were so comfortable with each other, opening up about each other's lives so early into our friendship L tried to come back on my birthday week. celebrated my birthday with him because i still loved him. at that time, i didnt choose W over L. i chose no one. told L that im didnt like how he treated me where he can just disappear as and when he likes. i know i didnt treat him right either. at that point when he was gone, ive made up my mind that i was gonna let him find his own happiness without me. so i told him to chase for me if he really loves me back and is willing to put my past aside. what turned me off was when he tried to put W down knowing i was hanging out with W. it is all over now with L. i dont hate him. i hope he doesnt hate me too. carried on spending time with W. from friends to lovers. was with him almost daily. so much time together yet it still doesnt feel enough. some call W a rebound. but i dont agree that im using W to replace L. W made me feel that everybody has a past but it doesnt dictate who you are and who you should be. i really felt that W understood how i was feeling with L that L keeps bringing up my past. Dear W, youve made me feel like i was finally given a chance to start afresh. ive never imagined that my 2022 without L can be so wonderful. it is only possible because you appeared in my life. i wouldnt want to trade you with anything else i wish i could spend every moment of my life with you but i know it is not possible. so i hope we can spend time with each other as much as possible, without getting bored. and i hope, you feel the same way towards me too. im looking forward to spend 2023 and many upcoming years with you. thank you for being such an amazing person!