i thought i will never have to be back here again.
but this week is a little too much to handle.
ive never been to caught up with school.
everything over the past few sems have been barely minimal.
most of the weightage of most mods used to come from the finals paper
but this sem is diferent
with only 2 finals, out of 5 mods, the CAs were overwhelming.
first half on the semester seemed pretty easy
only 2-3 assignments due and they were minor
as at week 10, im really drained
every modules are screaming at me to not neglect them
fyp woes
met up with prof today, after weeks of hiatus
he came up with one equation learnt in him module and told me,
"if you know this, you know more than half of your project already"
good thing is, im familiar with that equation
bad thing is, i dont understand the physics behind the equation!
so am i lost? or am i not?
design project woes
being the only member not living on campus, there's so much i had to compromise
i kinda felt it is unfair to me, but there's nothing much i can do
and i get the vibe that im not contributing as much as expected
all these has affected me emotionally lately
the past few days, i was easily pissed
being myself, i keep it all within me and today i was forced to explode
mentally tired. not thinking right.
just a few hours back : it was something minor from my brother, but i just felt like i want to complain to my sister.
screenshot his whatsapp, but sent it to him instead of my sister
panicked. so i just told him the reason why.
and now im feeling so guilty about it.
i just felt like complaining to someone else and i know i will feel better after that.
...though after all that, i still exploded to my sister about everything
in such situations, im really thankful for having my sister.
without a mum, a father that's almost non-existence, single, plenty of close friends but none that i can HTHT especially family related.... my sister was my only choice left.
im not sure if she understood my situation fully, but she sure makes a good listening ear
alright. ive lost the mood to type more.
im now in a dilemma: to just sleep and hope for a better tomorrow, or to do my assignments.
not loving my final year. not wishing im working either.
but this week is a little too much to handle.
ive never been to caught up with school.
everything over the past few sems have been barely minimal.
most of the weightage of most mods used to come from the finals paper
but this sem is diferent
with only 2 finals, out of 5 mods, the CAs were overwhelming.
first half on the semester seemed pretty easy
only 2-3 assignments due and they were minor
as at week 10, im really drained
every modules are screaming at me to not neglect them
fyp woes
met up with prof today, after weeks of hiatus
he came up with one equation learnt in him module and told me,
"if you know this, you know more than half of your project already"
good thing is, im familiar with that equation
bad thing is, i dont understand the physics behind the equation!
so am i lost? or am i not?
design project woes
being the only member not living on campus, there's so much i had to compromise
i kinda felt it is unfair to me, but there's nothing much i can do
and i get the vibe that im not contributing as much as expected
all these has affected me emotionally lately
the past few days, i was easily pissed
being myself, i keep it all within me and today i was forced to explode
mentally tired. not thinking right.
just a few hours back : it was something minor from my brother, but i just felt like i want to complain to my sister.
screenshot his whatsapp, but sent it to him instead of my sister
panicked. so i just told him the reason why.
and now im feeling so guilty about it.
i just felt like complaining to someone else and i know i will feel better after that.
...though after all that, i still exploded to my sister about everything
in such situations, im really thankful for having my sister.
without a mum, a father that's almost non-existence, single, plenty of close friends but none that i can HTHT especially family related.... my sister was my only choice left.
im not sure if she understood my situation fully, but she sure makes a good listening ear
alright. ive lost the mood to type more.
im now in a dilemma: to just sleep and hope for a better tomorrow, or to do my assignments.
not loving my final year. not wishing im working either.
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