i know my siblings will never fully understand what i am going through.
but he has disappointed me so much that i am scared to put too much hope in him until he has proven me wrong.

i feel that i may have become stronger as a person, but weaker at the same time.
im lacking the emotional support. but im getting more independent at the same time

little did he realise, while i am earning, i am losing other important aspects in the life of a university student.
yes, i am jealous of my friends. while they are involving themselves in school activities, i will be on my way to make my ends meet. while they are revising or doing their own research, i will be trying to earn to live.

my life as a (abnormal) student: studies, earning, my part for the housework(which im beginning to neglect due to time constrain), family, friends(minimal. very minimal).
and i am not proud of being a 'superman' cos i know i didnt do a good job.

it may not sound as hard. but try it with a sudden change, and no parental support. i repeat, NO PARENTAL SUPPORT.

you failed as a father