36 MORE DAYS TO COLLECTING MY PINK IC
as much as im looking forward to it, im actually dreading clearing of my leave.
call me crazy. call me stupid.
theres this fear in me. fear of the real world out there.
for the next 8 mths (after ORD), i have to have a job in order to 'survive'.
what i meant is that, i need a job for the money. yes, sadly, for the money.
also, to kill time.
to stay at home is nice. but to stay at home for alot of days, or even months, will just kill me slowly.
maybe im just creating excuses.
there is a part in me, i admit, that do not want to leave my friends.
not as if we cant meet up or anything, but planning can be a trouble.
yes, i did make some good friends, i believe. just a lil too late maybe.
only when im about to leave then i found some people who could actually tolerate my nonsense and not get pissed or take it to heart.
maybe they did. maybe they dont.
at least they are somewhere near my freqency and wavelength of thoughts.
urgh. im so dreading this.
for the months after, i just hope i have my friends by my side.
friends are one of the important ppl in MY life.
also, i hope my uni friends will be as great or better.
and that is why, i SHOULD be going to the orientations though i kinda dreads it.
miss me when im gone.
cos i sure will miss you guys when i leave.
you guys made my life in SCDF a lil more cheerful.
i didnt regret OOC-ing ERS
i didnt regret becoming a medic.
i now dont regret choosing medical centre over station. (but have to agree station life is uber fun!)
as of now. im just gonna enjoy my last few days in camp.
as much as im looking forward to it, im actually dreading clearing of my leave.
call me crazy. call me stupid.
theres this fear in me. fear of the real world out there.
for the next 8 mths (after ORD), i have to have a job in order to 'survive'.
what i meant is that, i need a job for the money. yes, sadly, for the money.
also, to kill time.
to stay at home is nice. but to stay at home for alot of days, or even months, will just kill me slowly.
maybe im just creating excuses.
there is a part in me, i admit, that do not want to leave my friends.
not as if we cant meet up or anything, but planning can be a trouble.
yes, i did make some good friends, i believe. just a lil too late maybe.
only when im about to leave then i found some people who could actually tolerate my nonsense and not get pissed or take it to heart.
maybe they did. maybe they dont.
at least they are somewhere near my freqency and wavelength of thoughts.
urgh. im so dreading this.
for the months after, i just hope i have my friends by my side.
friends are one of the important ppl in MY life.
also, i hope my uni friends will be as great or better.
and that is why, i SHOULD be going to the orientations though i kinda dreads it.
miss me when im gone.
cos i sure will miss you guys when i leave.
you guys made my life in SCDF a lil more cheerful.
i didnt regret OOC-ing ERS
i didnt regret becoming a medic.
i now dont regret choosing medical centre over station. (but have to agree station life is uber fun!)
as of now. im just gonna enjoy my last few days in camp.
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