my life has been quite dull that my last entry was almost two weeks ago.

about that cat, of course i do feel the difference without her.
there's no longer a cat to walk me home from my void deck.
to take the lift with me when im back from work.
there's no more calling her name.
there's no more telling "i'll give you food when i come back. just wait here" when she only appeared when we're going out.
i miss her. though she's just a stray cat that frequent my home for food and sometimes a place to nap.

this weekend isnt a great one.
to go back to camp on a saturday for only 2 hrs is shit. plus, didnt do much there.
and tomorrow, going back to camp for duty!
damn sian la in camp on a sunday.
lucky i got half-day OIL to use on monday, if not i'll just die there.

and seriously, there isnt much motivation for me to work in camp.
everybody's covering their own big ass.
even for a small little thing, the blame is pushed to the inferior.
the superior wont take the blame, and wont even help his men, even for a small matter.
the situation just suck.
he needs his men. w/o his men, he cant do anything. but why does he treat his men like shit.
WITHOUT HIS MEN, HE CANNOT DO ANY WORK.
please gain the support of your men, or else you're a fucking useless INVERTED-COMMA-LEADER.
if everyone were to rebel, you'll be the first to die.

but fortunately for me, i have reliable friends who are at the same position as me. credits goes to them for the drive, though little, that i have.