supposed to go out with og 34

to og 34...

im very very sorry..
that i at the VERY LAST MIN say im not going
(it was at the very last hr actually)

i wanted to go watch movie
but only date movie
not any others
since i think scary movie is funny
then date movie shld be somewhat similar too~
im sure it'll be more worth it than pink panther...

ok..so...i didnt join u all for movie
thought it wld be ok to join u all after that

BUT..im so lazy to go out all the way to town
erm..jz to join u all for..maybe pool
yea...im lazy
n i dont want to travel all the way there alone~
i know it wont be my first time though..

another thing is..
im lack of confidence
im scared i just couldnt fit in with u all later
i might just turn out too boring...
too crazy..
or too weird..
u ppl wld also have a common recent hot topic of conversation
which wld be the movie...
then ppl like me cld only say "aww..i shld have watched it"
or.."gd thing i didnt watch"

i jz felt that i should have joined u all after the campfire
maybe..then...i wld know the mode i shld be in when with u all

lemme sidetrack abit...but kinda related

it is easy to say 'just be yourself'
whenever u are meeting new ppl
so that ppl wld either like or dont like you
so that u wld know who are ur friends

well...for ppl like me
somehow...i wld try my best to make ppl like(or at least not dislike) me
so as to not make enemies
esp on the first day/week/month
(i know i failed sometimes)

jc is supposed to be the most memorable part of ur education life
having enemies wld only create bad memories
i dont want bad memories
i want sweet ones

oh shit...i forgot what i wanted to say at first...damnit

hmm...being myself..
thats a range of extreme boring to extreme crazy
from extremely obedient to extremely irritating
(irritating..tts a part of me which i cant really control...smth ppl incl myseld dont like)
it is not some kind of split personality thing
but..im sure u ppl know how to be like with certain ppl
like...
obedient with person A...
a bully to person B...
u know..that kind of thing


ok...back to OG 34 outing thingy

im sure u all will have ENOUGH serious fun even without me
maybe...the level of fun-ness wld be the same if im there
and i'd be just like another competitor in pool
someone easy to beat
so as to make u ppl feel more pro
and not the worst player there
or maybe...to some of you
im just some boring nerdy geek like zhehao(oppss...sorry yea...)
ok..he might not be like what i mentioned above
but he certainly does keeps to himself
ANIWAY..IF U PPL REALLY THINKS IM LIKE THAT..
GET TO KNOW ME FIRST!!!...lol
but certainly...im not cool
and i dont wish to act like one
im not cute either..
(tho sometimes i love to act like one...WHEN TAKING PHOTOS)
im normal
some ppl might think i look very MAT
but i never tried to look like one
im the type of guy who wld go out with shirt n jeans as my outfit
(i dont taper my jeans!)


oh well..
i must be a difficult guy to deal with
i tell u all what
if there is ever a next outing
force me to confirm on the spot
...or...
count me out once i say im not confirm
i feel like i just pangseh-ed u all
i think i just did.

ok...a supposedly short entry turned out long

once again...to og 34
esp wyner n darren (i wasted lots of ur smses)
I AM VERY VERY SORRY.


this is a bias statement:(no offence)
I PREFER MY CSS-CMB friends.
LOVE THEM LOTS.


ervyn...im sorry
i prefer ur bro(padey) to you..
that's also an unfair statement
cos i know padey more than i know you
lol
no offence~
will try to get to know u better ait?


to all my pjc friends..i will try to know u all better
so that i will love u all as much as i love those CSS-CMB peeps
but...it takes two hands to clap
i hope you know what i mean...


till here i end