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2011-08-14T13:42:00.003+08:00

i think its the stress.

i came home from tuition today feeling very pissed off

my sister didnt do what i asked her to do, and she was sleeping when aaryan is sleeping.

not that it is wrong for her to sleep. but she has things to do.

and when aaryan is awake, she will be busy attending him.

so the housework which i need her help in is again left undone.

the house is very messy and dirty

hari raya is in 2 weeks' time and we will be moving out in october.

little has been done in preparation for these 2 events.

what makes me pissed off is that i know i will soon be buried with school work therefore wont have much time to clean up.

which is why i asked my sister to stay over whenever she can to help me out.

but it seems like whenever she's here, the work's unlikely to be done.

or rather, it adds on.

and she'll always have her reasons to ask me out. again, leaving work undone.

we're always so ambitious. planning what to do the next time she's here.

but we never get to do more than half of what's on the list.

buy this, buy that. saying we'll need them the next time we clean up.

but the stuffs that i bought last week is still laying where it was last week, untouched!

the only consolation is that im not lonely.

i have to fetch her here, send her back, send her go shop for her stuffs.

ok, i do pity her if she is really facing some problems living with her in-laws.

she chose to stay there, despite me complaining that i need her here.

she needs to realise that her resposibility is more now and she cant act the same like before.

she needs to realise that time is precious for her, and also the rest of us now.

another reason im pissed is my father.

very dependent on others.

the only things he helped out so far is to buy food.

drink water, leave mug on table. obviously, not even helping out to wash them.

whenever he's home. he's sleeping. but i know his work is tiring for his age.

on his off days, i dont know where he goes.

sleep, must on tv. waste electricity

waste money here and there.

ask him to buy new clothes for hari raya - NO MONEY!

and guess what he just showed me this morning?

he bought a second hand iphone 3gs for $400!

how can i not get angry??

he dont know how to use it!

i asked him, will he play the games? -No.

and btw, he's only using prepaid..

iphone user use prepard SIMcard? ridiculous!

he only uses his mobile phone for basic calling and messaging. which a simple nokia 3210 can do too.

my point is, if you dont use its function, dont waste money to buy it.

like come on, no money for a 2-digit priced clothes but buy something at $400 for something you wont even fully utilised??

ok, maybe im over-reacting. but they are getting on my nerves!!

i really want to know. what am i to the family now that mother is no longer around.

rate the following in order of importance:

-brother

-son

-student

-maid

-chauffeur

-nanny

and ACT the way they rate the above!

2011-08-10T16:24:00.002+08:00

sharon au @ ndp 2011 made me tear.

it just makes me sad that i wont be able to share such joy with my mum anymore.

growing up. the success after years of studies.

the fruit of her hardwork helping me grow.

it saddens me to not be able to see the look on her face when i get my degree 3 years later.

2011-08-06T01:02:00.001+08:00

each day i can only cry to myself.

2011-08-01T12:00:00.002+08:00

this is really very very hard.

i cant imagine how my life gonna be like each day for at least the next 6 months, till i get to live with my brother again.

it is very lonely at home.

i get reminded of her for everything i do and everywhere i go.

this is really the worst feeling ive never imagine.

to really miss someone, and know only time will fade that feeling away cos i'll never get to see her again.

now that its the fasting month, it is really a challenge for me to go through it.

usually for sahur (early morning meal), she'll wake me up and food will already be served.

she'll remind me will all the prayers required.

and for breaking-fast, i'll get her to cook for me dishes that i feel like eating.

and i really miss her cooking. i never get to taste them again.

i really regret taking her for granted. now im struggling to carry on with my life.

ive never imagine to lose my mum at only 22.

mum, there are still much for me to learn from you.

there are still alot of things for us to experience together.

you are supposed to be my company till we move to punggol

and that was the reason why you disapproved me from staying in nus hall/residence.

i always imagined that you will be there for my graduation.

i always imagined that you will live long enough to even see me getting married and see me having at least a child.

it really saddens me that you're gone just like that.

you were healthy. healthy enough that we get to go out everyday for 3 days before you were taken away.

mum, i really miss you alot.

see you again when im taken away one day.

i dont want to live with my dad.

he is making me more stress than i already am.

it really sucks that im only comfortable telling my problems to my mum and sister.

my mum is no longer around and my sister cant do much.

i really need some company at home.

was hoping my sister and her family can move back in

but they have some concerns of their own, which some are just selfish reasons i feel.

i really dont know if i can survive these six months (at least).

2011-06-26T23:40:00.002+08:00

sigh.

so my sister and her family have moved out.

its only the 2nd night and i miss living with them already despite seeing them just a few hours ago.

no doubt im very very close with my sister.

im really gonna miss those things that we used to do together.

and if i have to blame someone for them to move out early, it has got to be my father.

cos face it, after my brother gets married, there'll be just me and my parents.

there's enough space for my sister.

but, cos of recent incidents, they decided to move out early.

sucks, doesnt it?

remember early this year i said 2011 gonna be a great year?

i may just have to take back my words.

the only good thing that happened this year(that i can remember now) is getting a nephew.

2011 has been a fucked up year so far.

hope things change for the better.

i need happy songs to cheer me up!

apparently, LMFAO not doing a good job. i dont feel like shuffling!

2011-06-18T13:10:00.002+08:00

i knew the war is not over.

and i dont think it will end until we get our punggol home.

sigh, dont wish to explain things here.

i am definitely not in the wrong in today's incident.

but what made me write this entry is that my sis and husband is packing their things already

them + aaryan is gonna move out next weekend.

few days w/o them is tolerable.

but not gonna live together is something i may take some time to adapt.

w/o a girlfriend, my sis is the one who i complain family-related stuffs to the most.

on top of that, my brother's wedding is in 3 weeks time. which means, he'll be moving out straight after the wedding. gosh i'll be such a loner at home.

mum rejected my request to live in residence(hostel) so that i can keep her company.

guess thats the only thing that can keep me going for the next few months

and if my brother's keeping the car here until we move back together, i can foresee myself driving out often, provided i got the money and friends to go out with.

Adapted from How I Met Your Mother

" ..the future is scary. But you can't just run back to the past because it's familiar.."

2011-05-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

it is very satisfying to hear that your tutee/students have made improvements in their studies.

2011-05-19T22:04:00.002+08:00

i think i made a friend pissed off yesterday

im really sorry but here's my defence speech

lemme give you a lil background on the story.

i got this impromptu idea of going KL this june holiday.

and saw this friend saying he wants to go somewhere for holiday

so i kinda proposed to him the idea

so here's the speech

with reference to the invitation, it was made with the intention of going in a group

ive never intended to go with just one other friend unless the destination is some place ive long wanted to go or either of us won holiday tix for 2.

or youre my best friend or my loved one.
truthfully, you arent my best friend, just someone close. im pretty sure im not your best friend either. i can tell. im sure you bitch about me behind my back.

you may have been disappointed that i turned sour after knowing the rest couldnt make it and im really sorry about that.

2011-05-16T00:02:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2011-04-20T16:43:00.003+08:00

its now mid of reading week

and i want to complain

its my 2nd reading week ever since i enrolled.

and there's always something that happens within this week than prevents me from spending my time revising.

prev sem, it was my wisdom tooth accompanied by fever

this sem, my mom fell sick.

she feels pain after standing and when sitting down.

doctor diagnosed her with deep vein thrombosis.

ive no idea whats that, but its smth bout the veins

so, houseworks usually done by her are left undone.

as her child, and the occupant of the house, i dont mind doing SOME.

yes, SOME. not all.

what makes me quite pissed is that some people dont bother to help out.

my sister is usually busy with aaryan so sometimes she's excused.

but she ALWAYS sleeps whenever aaryan sleeps. dont know if thats a good excuse.

ok, my point is, im not the most free person in the house.

i wonder if they know i have exams starting TOMORROW.

even if last minute studying has been the norm, the last minute is NOW.

i understand that you people may be tired after work but if we share the workload, nobody is at a greater loss.

i was so ashamed when my BIL helped out, but not people of my blood.

whats worse is that nobody dared to ask them to help out, and only calls AIDIL for help.

sigh. must be the exams stress.

anyway, best of luck to me!

2011-03-19T15:42:00.003+08:00

guess what.

everybody says you have to think of ME, who is still under YOUR RESPONSIBILITY.

(and of course your wife)

but what i gather is that you do think of me. you think im your burden.

is that what makes one a father?

2011-03-19T14:45:00.003+08:00

maybe stupid is an understatement.

dont you ever wonder if everyone is against your idea, it just means that your idea is not right.

i believe im am wrong only in the sense that i disrespect you.

but with your action like that, do you think you deserve any respect at all?

you have to earn it to deserve it dude!

2011-03-16T21:07:00.002+08:00

i tried not to question this, but i cant hold it back anymore.

why do i have you as my father?!

disappoint me over and over again.

the only thing i gathered from the heated conversation just now is that you think im a burden to you for studying till this stage.

like fuck you can?

the only thing NOW is that you provide me a shelter.

or maybe if it wasnt for my brother and brother in law, i wldnt have a shelter either.

im really really pissed off now.

so now you go around telling your siblings i asked alot of money from you?

FUCK YOU AGAIN!

i earn my own daily allowance

i fork out my own transportation fee.

i fork out the balance of the school fee after the subsidy

AND ALL THESE ARE WITHOUT ANY HELP FROM YOU!

you dont even ask if i have enough

and then you expect me to help you with the bills at home?

are you really stupid?

do you know how much i get for teaching the children of YOUR siblings?

its not much you know...

and do you think giving tuition is easy?

i help my cousins with their school at least 7hrs a week

have you ever taught if i have enough time for my school work?

and then, when im trying to study in the living room cos my brother is sleeping in the room, you switch on the tv like im invisible. or talk so loud like the house is so big a bungalow.

and now youre trying to blame me for troubling you?

for god's sake im your son!

and fuck you im your only dependent child now.

so its my fault im furthering my studies?

first, you take in all the praises cos your son is the first to get into a uni.

then now this.

PEA BRAIN.

gosh im so furious right now.

and i miss my sister cos ive got no one to talk to

im really not looking forward to living with only my parents.

he's such a fucked up guy i dont want to live with him anymore!!!!

2011-03-03T22:00:00.000+08:00

he is seriously one fucked up guy.

how to respect, you tell me?

2011-02-10T10:29:00.002+08:00

i seriously do not know what they are thinking.

is hiding from us really the best solution?

that really shows where you put your priority.

im so disappointed with my parents. and pissed at the same time.

they failed to see that i am still a student.

AN ADULT, but still is a student.

being an adult means i KNOW what happens and what can happen.

being a student means i STILL NEED the support of others in every means.

seems like there seems to be a HUGE barrier for something to reach their hearts. and brains.

since there is no escape for me, i can only make the best of it..till somebody else take over as the head of the house. and hopefully that comes very soon.

im not stupid, im not blind.

if for the past few months you always complained youve got no money bla bla bla. and suddenly you can buy all sorts of things and always go out, saying staying home is boring, it only shows one thing.

that you can now afford it. so where do these money come from?

we may be still be having a cold war.

i may be the young one, but i dont think im the one who should start speaking to the other.

you, who is not being truthful to not only me but also my siblings, should start telling us what is happening and what is going to happen.

talk to us, listen to our concerns.

we may not be experienced, but our thinking are more up to date.

my parents may have raised us right as kids.

but i fell that they failed to raise us right when we've grown up.

but thankfully my siblings and i are sensible enough to not go to the wrong direction.

sigh, i need to think of how im gonna support myself for at least another 3 years..

looking at how things are going, there seems to be no one that i can rely on.

i am not regretting bout the education path that i chose, but in times like this, i cant help but to think why didnt i choose the poly path. which by now i should be waiting for my ORD this year, and then work full time.

FML.

2011-01-30T23:22:00.003+08:00

i hope i can get my mum to go to the doctor tomorrow.

anw, it feels like everyone in the family thinks im still 'too young' to care bout the family.

probably because im a student and isnt contributing anything to the home.

it sucks cos im not taken seriously

their actions tell me "youre too young. what do you know"

firstly, i may be a student but im no longer a kid. (theres no more protection against death penalty for me)

secondly, please note that what i do is for whats right and what i think is best for the family. if i think youre wrong, im gonna say it out. if you think im wrong, tell me. and not the 'you wont know' reaction

thirdly, if there are 2 conflicting ideas, choose your side! dont be hypocritical. you complain to me about him, and then you still follow his wrongdoings? doesnt that makes you wrong too? then what am i supposed to do? we are family, not slaves for the other(s)!

if you really pity us, stop all this shits!

and dont contradict your stand.

2011-01-30T14:31:00.003+08:00

how can i not get so pissed??!

esp after the recent happenings...

my brother gave my mum money for her medications last monday when the supply has finished.

but the doctor told her to come on friday instead since thats her appointment date and gave her a week supply of the medicines.

my dad had his appointment on thurdays and used the money from my mum, which is from my brother. he promised to give back the money before her appointment.

i just got to know, the money wasnt returned and my mum didnt take her medicine.

what got me real mad is that my mum asked me not to tell my brother.

can my mum please stand up for her rights??!

the situation is getting really fucked up!

cant help but to be pissed on a such a lovely weather on a sunday.

2011-01-29T16:30:00.002+08:00

is discussion with us regarding the matter so difficult?

you need to LISTEN to our concerns

i really pity my mum

our fate for the next 18 mths lies in her hands.

she's so stressed out deciding whats right whats wrong

not only that, she also has to suffer verbal abuse.

i dont want to make things difficult for her

but i have to constantly remind her that whatever decision she makes will affect the whole family which includes my sister and her family and my brother who is soon to be married.

2011-01-27T17:19:00.003+08:00

fuck.

he keep harping on whether we are the ones who follow him or he's following us, questioning us where is his authority

how fucked up can you get?

its because we are the ones who are following you that we dont want to be lead to the wrong direction. or suffer for your actions.

like seriously, at which era are you living at?

nowadays, followers have the right to object, especially if the leader is not doing smth that is right.

like imagine, singapore is somewhat governed by PAP. if PAP were to do smth wrong, say only chinese ministers allowed, surely the other races are gonna react.

what i mean is, for all actions, expect some reactions. and no, im not talking bout newton's 3rd law.

everybody have their own interest at heart. so it is normal for them to voice out. be it supporting you or objecting you.

if you, as a leader, refuse to consider concerns, do you think we followers will still want to follow you?

please la, put yourself in our shoes can?

a leader is given a responsibility, not a right to do whatever he feels is right.

as a leader, the effect of your actions will be felt by your followers.

cant you at least get that right??

by the way, you are no longer a leader to kids.

we are all adults, for goodness sake!

and by the way, as the malay saying goes, the older generations are the ones who ate more salt is JUST a saying. yes older people is more experience. but the context now is different.

oh, you eat too much salt, you'll get hypertension.

its funny how they always watch those info-ed shows about communication in family, agreeing to the methods shown, cited examples from the relatives and yet they too commit the same mistakes.

have you ever reflect what you say or do?

do you ever think?

i am very very sure i still am the mouth for you to feed.

as of now, i am utterly disappointed that you do not even care.

where is the fianancial support, mental support and emotional support that im supposed to get?

but still, what you are doing now is to chuck me one corner, and yet expect me to contribute?

dont you dare say im not repaying the contributions you make when i was younger.

sigh, its really no use saying all these to you.

as if you care...

im so disappointed in you that i am ashamed to share this problem of mine with my friends.

you suck!

2011-01-23T15:54:00.001+08:00

sigh. beginning of 2011 has been tough.

pray for a better tomorrow!

2011-01-21T18:57:00.002+08:00

no one can discipline adults, other than themselves. and probably the law.

no words can describe how disappointed i am with my father.

this is probably one of the hardest challenges in my life, to have a father that is a 'leader' but not a listener.

i still dont understand his thoughts. and why he is not open to suggestions.

old-fashioned.

the truth is, i am ashamed of his background.

ive never ever told my friends about him.

if you ask me, how is my life today is a result of my dad, i'd reply Everything.

for everything is my life now is only the result of him doing nothing.

i have to admit. for this, i teared.

everybody has their own family problem. this is mine.

it is tough. nevertheless, i still have to face it.

sometimes, i just wish i can already have a family of my own.

and i promise never to commit the mistakes of my father.

2011-01-01T01:47:00.003+08:00

Hey there....

HAPPY NEW YEAR! may we have a great 2011.

its seems only a while back that i was celebrating my ORD and welcoming 2010, and then looking for a job to keep me 'entertained' while waiting for uni to start.

2010 was an 'okay' year.

it was great, but somehow 2009 seems to be more memorable and enjoyable.

here are some highlights of 2010.

- celebrating 21st birthdays of all in the jps clique.

- turning 21

- working at NCS hub. great colleagues though the job quite mundane. but customers can be quite a pain in the ass.

- getting a driving license

- KL/Genting with the usual suspects

- great theme parties of the usual suspects (with more to come!)

- uni year 1 sem 1

like i said in twitter and facebook, im positive that 2011 is gonna be better.

and i hope it really is.

uni sem 1's result was atrocious. im determined to get a better CAP next sem onwards.

im hoping to have a clique of close reliable friends from uni, be it from my course, faculty or cca.

so here are some things to look forward to

- more happening university life

- brother's wedding

- getting a nephew

- probably become an Eastie. high chance moving to punggol 2nd half of 2011.

and i hope there's more to add on along the way.

probably an overseas trip in december! anyone interested?

depending on budget and safety of the country,

im looking at bandung, bangkok, taiwan, south korea, shanghai/beijing, perth/melbourne/sydney/gold coast/brisbane, turkey

probably hong kong too. yes, ive not had enough of hongkong.

my cousins kinda planned to go korea in Jan 2012. but i dont think it is advisable for me to go due to the school semester. oh well, we'll see how it goes.

im so excited!

2010-12-21T08:55:00.002+08:00

sigh

results is really bad!

in fact, for the mods that i underperformed, its by ALOT!

affected my CAP damn badly

i guess i deserved it, with that kind of preparation..

really really need to buck up for the rest of my uni life and pull up my socks real high!

i SHALL NOT get CAP any lower than this.

damn that C+. hate it!

2010-12-08T18:23:00.002+08:00

remember some time ago i was having thoughts of changing my major?

i was THAT bored at home, that i decided to think about it again.

im very tempted to change my major to chem engin..im still in love with chemistry

but the career path it leads to isnt as exciting as mech engin, despite the higher salary

i guess i'll be sticking to mech engin, hoping to secure a career in the aero or automotive industry

for now, SIA is my dream company to work in...

2010-11-27T12:35:00.000+08:00

SEMESTER 1's OVER!!!!!

dont think im gonna do well though.
reading week was kinda wasted partly cause i was sick
wisdom tooth pain can be a bitch. it's so painful that it was so hard to concentrate.
plus the fever that comes at random times.

i only managed to do the minimum for my revision, that is, reading my notes and redoing tutorial questions, while my friends are practising past year papers.
my revision plan was kinda screwed.

i remember i kept complaining to people and in twitter about my programming module.
my lecturer constantly reminded us that it is a skill module. have to practice to improve.
being me, i didnt bother to do extra. i didnt even try tutorials. the only questions i do are the take home labs.
52% out of 60 for CA. is that good enough?
somehow, im only confident passing this module.

the rest are so URGH!
i think my results will depend on my luck
if extremely good luck, CAP > 4.0.
if luck is good, 3.5 <>
bad, CAP <3.5

but it all doesnt matter now, for a month, till i get back my results.

just need to know, SEMESTER 1 IS OVER!
7 more to go.

2010-10-27T22:11:00.002+08:00

a rather depressing day

knew im abit behind time

didnt knew it was that much!

went studying with a group of friends

even the slackers are ahead of me

understood the module more than i do

practised more questions

it got me thinking.

they go clubbing average once a week, i dont club.

at most i go out on alternate weekends

where did my time go to???

i hope its not due to complacency after midterms.

and its not as if i did well either...

SIGH.

2010-10-26T22:23:00.003+08:00

alright. i know nobody really cares about blogs nowadays.

twitter and facebook is like the coolest thing on the internet.

and maybe tumblr.

so i was in a conversation with a friend, and ended up talking bout how we used to fare in our secondary school.

he was one of the better students in his school while always ended up bottom 5 in class for lower secondary.

not that surprising actually, considering half the class ended up in the triple science class.

well, the main point was, at that point of time, i never thought i would end up in a University.

i saw myself ending up in a polytechnic.

up till sec 4, i still though polytechnic was my choice, instead of the JC route.

only somewhere after the mid-year exams, i fear choosing the wrong course if i were to choose poly.

it took me quite a while to decide.

upon receiving the prelims result of L1R5: 9, i decided to give JC a try.

fortunately at that time, there was this thing called the Provisional Admission Exercise (PAE) for JCs, more commonly known as the first three months.

yup, it was fun. and i still couldnt decide which poly course to take.

so, i chose the JC path.

till now, i never regretted.

so when i reached home, i took out this book i had about the Joint Admission Exercise (JAE)

i remember writing my choices in the book back then.

my choices were:

1) Pioneer JC

2) National JC

3) Anglo Chinese JC

4) Saint Andrews JC

5) Jurong JC

6) Innova JC

7) Biomedical Science (Singapore Poly)

8) Biomedical Science (Ngee Ann Poly)

9) Media and Communication (Singapore Poly)

10) Tourism and Resort Management (Singapore Poly)

11) Tourism and Resort Management (Ngee Ann Poly)

12) Sports and Wellness Management (Nanyang Poly)

things to note,

- the order of choices for JCs arent in order of cut-off points. it's just my preference. fyi, i could have made it to National JC (NJC)........through band. but the muggers are such turn-offs. another fyi, i did better than some friends in NJC. The choice of JC doesnt matter that much.

- options 10-12 are seriously WTH! didnt know i had 'interest' in them at that time.

- engineering wasnt even one of the options!!

but my point is, i was heavier to biomedical science

ME. Diploma in Biomedical Science.

it would have been awesome, wouldnt it?

ok. it's not that im regretting my choice of course for Uni.

I had the time, and i wondered what would have happened if i were to choose the poly route instead.

As for Uni, it's still Semester 1. though it is ending in about a months time.

but im still doing very little of engineering. still at the fundamentals of it.

a.k.a maths and physics

definitely not easy. trying my best to cope with the amount of informations i have to know.

now that im in it, the only way out is at least with a degree. and my choice, Bachelor of Engineering.

but as for my major, im still deciding whether to change it from Mechanical Engineering to other kinds of engineering. such as Chemical Engineering or Material Science Engineering.

2010-10-08T18:31:00.002+08:00

it is really damn fast!

2nd half of the semester.

midterms over.

2/4 results out.

aint that bad.

aint that good either.

but im happy that at least im somewhere in the middle.

ive got mixed feelings about my programming mod

sometimes its a bitch, but sometimes its sexy.

but i just got to know that im not alone

many others feel the same way bout that module.

anyway, im damn happy that i won tickets to watch President Star Charity

thanks to Sylvia Ratonel.

i was one of the first 5 to email her my name and contact number. =)

2010-08-29T17:13:00.003+08:00

URGH!
its so frustrating when working ppl thinks that life of a student is sooo easy.
it is disappointing when THEY are your immediate family members.

ok. maybe pri and sec sch life is easy and happy-go-lucky
but uni life is definitely a no no.
my sec sch teacher once said "uni life is easier than jc"
for now, i have to disagree!
feels like giving her a tight slap now

in jc, you have ample time for revision if you are lagging during learning of new topics
in uni (poly shld be abt the same), once you're lagging, its your own responsibility to catch up
you'll be graded throughout the semester
revision for final exam is only one/two WEEKS as compared to months for A or O levels

compared to working life, uni isnt easy.
we have to attend classes to learn. skipping is allowed for some, but we may lose out.
on top of things to do in school, WE HAVE SCHOOL WORK AND REVISION TO DO AT HOME
working : work at office/workplace. rest at home.
it is tiring i know. but you can rest once you're home!
schooling: rest only after you're done with school work

im stressed
im panicking
yet ive got no one to turn to at home.
not one understands the kind of life im going through.

i may not need any of them to help me with school work
but i need time and space to do them

i know its only going to week 4 (year 1) of uni, but i hope they understand me as soon as possible

let me bring out a point of the fast paced uni life

i have 5 mods for uni
mod 1 : currently at topic 4 out of 11
mod 2 : topic 3 out of 11
mod 3 : topic not sure out of not sure. but, the lecturer is a freaking chinaman who doesnt speak so clear. it's as soon as self-learning. fortunately enough, the tutor is good.
mod 4 : COMPUTING! totally new. 1 topic each week. total 11 weeks.
mod 5 : topic 2 out of 8

imagine, im only that far. and i have a total of 13 weeks each sem.
calculate when i'll finish learning everything and the time i have for revision.

bottomline is, i cannot afford to be lagging behind now.

seriously, URGH!

2010-07-30T14:11:00.002+08:00

the grass is always greener on the other side.

i remember being excited for school when i was serving the nation
now, i wish im still 'working' at CDA's medical centre. but with the same rules and people when i was still there.

believe it or not, im left with one week of break before school starts
did i do any preparation for school? NO. unless giving tuition counts.
it does give my brain a lil bit of work, but only to my disappointment.

timetable. depressing.
tutorial group mates. even more depressing (judging from their names, if you know what i mean..)
it IS gonna be competitive. i hope it is to my advantage

am i worrying bout it unnecessarily? i hope so...
i dont want my next 4 years to be miserable

2010-06-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

Since it is the WORLD CUP season, here are the 3 teams that i like and dislike

LIKE:

1) Spain SPAIN SPAIN!!
2) Netherlands
3) South Korea

DISLIKE:

1) France
2) Argentina
3) Portugal

Fan of Spain and Netherlands since 1998, when i bothered about world cup
in 1994 i was too busy with my power rangers and ninja turtles..
Very disappointed over Spain's lost to Switzerland yesterday
Nevertherless, still believe that Spain will make it to the next round..
Supporting South Korea as it is the only reliable team that is representing Asia.

France and Argentina just sucks
Portugal is like shit esp cos there's C.Ronaldo. Dont know whats so good about him.

GO SPAIN!

2010-06-16T00:47:00.008+08:00

suddenly feels like writing something here after a long hiatus.
kinda lost the mood to keep the blog alive, esp after signing up for twitter.

twitter is like so cool. i can instantly COMPLAIN there using my phone
instead of keeping it in me and then vomit it out in my blog only after reaching home.
follow my tweets!

facebook is cool too. i provide updates of my life there...
through photos and whatever shits available
but it is kinda getting boring..

anyway, just to update people out there who kept visiting this blog only to be disappointed due to no updates.....

ref to entry dated January 01 2010,

well, here are some things to look forward to in 2010.

1) driving licence

2) genting/KL trip with Usual Suspects (insya'allah i'll go)

3) 21st birthday. OMG IM TURNING 21 ALREADY!

4) uni. yes. UNI!

im done with no. 1-3.

left with no. 4 which will start on august 2.

yes. i passed my driving on the 3rd of June (2nd attempt) with 12 demerit point.

still have yet to get my card cos it has only been almost 3 weeks (they promised a month)

yes. i went to KL/Genting with the Usual Suspects and it was fun fun fun.

we went by plane to save travelling time and also for first time experience to some of them.

oh, and we kinda vowed not to visit KL again for the next few years.

will save up more to go further than just KL/malaysia.

i want to go vietnam/taiwan! (they are QUITE affordable)

yes. im 21 now.

dont really feel old.

just dont like the feeling of having more responsibilities

but, i'll be getting the GST offset! like, finally!

Uni starting soon.

Orientation camps will be very very soon

kinda sad that i didnt get a place in engin camp...

ALL THE BEST TO ME IN UNI!

PRAY HARD I'LL GET TO DO AERO ENGIN....

till i feel like posting again, sayonara!

2010-01-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

hmm..this whole fahrul farewell thing is giving me flashbacks of my friendship with him.

it started in PRIMARY TWO, when we got to know each other in our mother tongue class.
i think we were partners back then.
its kinda cute. we will phone each other and meet each other at the playground to play.
but since he lived across the street, either one of us has to cross the main road.
so whenever it was me who needs to cross, my mum has to accompany (yes yes, call me mummy's boy).

other than that, i rmb how he often gets to become class monitor or a rep in anything and everything.
including topaz house captain, which was the lousiest house at that time.
the house that only win award in cheering, which many said its consolation.

oh..and i think there was also this quarrel among our group of friends.
then we didnt talk to each other cos of some misunderstanding.
how childish we were that time huh?
and the silly-est thing is that my friend was the one who quarrelled with him. not me.
haha. primary school thing~

well, he somehow got smarter from primary 4 onwards. like really smart.
if there was a top malay student award for psle in JPS, he would have gotten it.
he really did the best among the malays.

after that, somehow, we lost touch abit.
seeing each other once a year kinda thing.
but still, he was very famous for being a playboy.
he admit ok!
kept changing girlfriends, too many girlfriends.
and keep pangseh-ing us.

oh, and he was famous in media too.
well, kinda.
always appearing in news and newspaper.
kinda proud of him for that.
like, i can say "look, my friend's on the papers/tv!"

oh well, fahrul...if u happen somehow to bump into this entry.
i'd just wanna say you are really a great great friend.
really glad to still be in touch till now (which is for 12 years, and still counting)
like i said earlier today, if we managed to still keep in contact for 8 years ever since we've graduated from JPS, im sure another 5 years is no problem to us.

i wish you all the best for your studies (and military training) in canberra.
we shall update each other through facebook/msn/twitter/email/anything relavant yea?
maybe we can even do things cooler like snail-mailing.
the rest of us will be looking forward to the days that you'll be back during your holidays to have a catching up session.
we'll miss you, buddy!

2010-01-01T16:27:00.002+08:00

its never late to look back at the year 2009

here are some of my major events of 2009:

-Brother's Engagement/Getting a future sis-in-law (Jan 11)
-Birthday Surprise by Primary Schoolmates (15-16 May)
-Chalet as Birthday with The Usual Suspects (16-18 May)
-Watching Liverpool in Singapore (July 26)
-Sister's Wedding/ Getting a bro-in-law (7-9 Aug)
-Raya with Med Ctr Peeps (after so long of no raya-ing with friends)
-Hong Kong (26-30 Oct)
-ORD (10 Dec)

2009 was definitely better than 2008.

well, here are some things to look forward to in 2010.

1) driving licence
2) genting/KL trip with Usual Suspects (insya'allah i'll go)
3) 21st birthday. OMG IM TURNING 21 ALREADY!
4) uni. yes. UNI!

im positive for 2010 being as good, if not better, as 2009.

HAPPY 2010!

2009-12-29T12:25:00.003+08:00

it's been more than 24hrs since SEZAIRI SEZALI was crowned the new Singapore Idol.
im happy that he won, though i thought having a female idol this time round would be kinda nice.
but seriously, if according to the performances during the grand finale, sezairi is more deserving to get the title.

as usual, the negative comments started pouring in. and i do feel for sezairi.
he has done nothing to deserve these negative comments.
he gave all out during the performances, put up a good show and in no way was he less deserving than sylvia.
i mean, they both were good enough to get the title.

well, for those who arent happy with the results, FACE IT. the winner still wont change.
you guys have only you and your fellow fans to blame.
here's some facts on how sezairi won:
he has MORE fans.
he has fans that are willing to support him by casting MORE votes.

if you're saying he has the votes of the malay community, then i think you deserve a tight slap.
please do not generalise. i have malay friends supporting sylvia.
I myself did not vote (as i didnt mind who wins).
and if you look at the proportion of the races in singapore, malay isnt the majority.
if ALL of the other races didnt want sezairi to win, im sure he wouldnt even get to top 4.

im just sick of hearing all the negative comments made in such a short time.
im sure sezairi feels hurt by all these and i feel sorry for him.
these people disgust me.

2009-12-26T13:56:00.002+08:00

Christmas 2009 was spent BBQ-ing with my NS-mates.

while they were updating me on the situation in medical centre, somehow, it struck me that i do miss it. miss being part of the fight.
at the same time, im glad there's no more fucked up regulars who thinks that the NSFs are a bunch of pushovers.

but i do realise that the world outside can be much worse.

i am so gonna miss them.
till we meet again, buddies.
if its meant to be, im sure we'll never lose contacts.

right, primary school mates?

2009-12-11T01:27:00.002+08:00

A Chapter Ended.
Another Begins.

*thumb's down* I dislike this period of time.
people like me have low ability to adapt to new environment

anti-social and introvert-ness, welcome back!

2009-12-10T00:05:00.002+08:00

HOHO. It's my Operationally Ready Date.
or more commonly known as ORD.

the 2 years has been quite a breeze i should say~
though being a recruit kinda sucked and NS did make my life a lil dull.
NS isnt all bad.

im glad i got posted to SCDF.
i know it is generalised as the place for Mats (malay bengs), and i still do think it is...
but there are some nice educated people (of all races, incl malays) there
before getting THE LETTER, i was hoping that i would get SAF.
prepared myself mentally for the life in tekong
already had my path planned out. to SAF BAND. if not, i wont mind OCS.
but no, its SCDF.
the only good thing i could think of at that time was staying on mainland.

got posted as a MEDIC. best vocation of SCDF.
i'd say that im lucky to get out of Emergency Rescue Specialist, ERS (though many may disagree)
tasted both the life of a station medic as well as the medical centre medic.
oh. life as medic trainee was so much better than life as a recruit. i so miss that period more.

station medic is really really fun. i dont deny.
being the 'hero'. the experience is priceless.
having to serve the public, really on the run..
seeing dead people, dying people, people in need of healthcare..
better than army. prepare prepare, but never really get to do the REAL thing.

medical centre medic is fun to. more so cos of the colleagues.
regulars can go hump the wall.
really glad for the friends i've made. seniors juniors. everyone. good or bad.
to sum it all up, my 2 years was 'made faster' cos of them.
going thru thick and thin together.
having fucked by brainless regulars or a certain doctor
teaming up against them...
screaming and screwing kengsters.
attending injured trainees..
doing drips and injections
certainly something i'll miss.

senior kamal luqman faiz abdul hakim
junior fuad dennis khoo zakaria lam farhan
dont think i'll ever forget them especially.
and to all : THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES.
like the title of Ryan Cabrera's song goes, I WILL REMEMBER YOU.
ALL OF YOU.

2009-12-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

The next time im waking up at 6am, it wouldnt be because i have to go to CDA.

feel me.

2009-12-01T21:24:00.002+08:00

i cant believe that tomorrow will be my last day donning the SCDF uniform as a NSF.

and there's this mixture of feelings inside me.
like what i told a friend of mine, im gonna lose this sense of belonging.
until i find a job of course...

i used to think that NS sucks to the core and there's nothing good about it.
but now, im glad that i can at least agree with the majority that NS is something that you will miss.

2009-11-24T16:51:00.003+08:00

times have changed.

its funny how i used to enjoy staying at home.
school holidays are one of the best periods for a student.
staying home for a week wasnt a problem. though there were homeworks to do.
in fact, a week may even be not enough.

but now, four days at home and im restless.
not that i miss camp (I REALLY DONT)...
its just that i feel caged.
online till bored. play psp till tired of holding it. watch tv till there's nth to watch.
thats how NS 'spoiled' me. the schedule of having no term breaks.

2009-11-03T21:42:00.002+08:00

36 MORE DAYS TO COLLECTING MY PINK IC

as much as im looking forward to it, im actually dreading clearing of my leave.
call me crazy. call me stupid.
theres this fear in me. fear of the real world out there.
for the next 8 mths (after ORD), i have to have a job in order to 'survive'.
what i meant is that, i need a job for the money. yes, sadly, for the money.
also, to kill time.
to stay at home is nice. but to stay at home for alot of days, or even months, will just kill me slowly.

maybe im just creating excuses.
there is a part in me, i admit, that do not want to leave my friends.
not as if we cant meet up or anything, but planning can be a trouble.
yes, i did make some good friends, i believe. just a lil too late maybe.
only when im about to leave then i found some people who could actually tolerate my nonsense and not get pissed or take it to heart.
maybe they did. maybe they dont.
at least they are somewhere near my freqency and wavelength of thoughts.

urgh. im so dreading this.
for the months after, i just hope i have my friends by my side.
friends are one of the important ppl in MY life.
also, i hope my uni friends will be as great or better.
and that is why, i SHOULD be going to the orientations though i kinda dreads it.

miss me when im gone.
cos i sure will miss you guys when i leave.
you guys made my life in SCDF a lil more cheerful.
i didnt regret OOC-ing ERS
i didnt regret becoming a medic.
i now dont regret choosing medical centre over station. (but have to agree station life is uber fun!)

as of now. im just gonna enjoy my last few days in camp.

2009-11-01T00:03:00.003+08:00

hi all.
it's been 24hrs since i touched down in Singapore (from Hong Kong)
overall, the trip to Hong Kong was awesome
it was really satisfying, considering that we did the planning all by ourselves.
a totally free-n-easy trip.
extremely happy with our accomodation (Dragon Hostel). totally recommended.

not posting photos here. uploading them on facebook soon. do take a look.

some of the places we went:

- HK space museum
- avenue of stars
- ladies street (shopping heaven. D'uh. a street market)
- ocean park (GREAT GREAT GREAT! Love it)
- central pier
- the peak (lovely weather up there. chilling)
- ngong ping (giant buddha)
- HK Disneyland, Halloween (crowd is a turn-off. but great experience)

mode of transport we experienced:

- Airport express (totally cool train with very comfortable seats)
- Airport free shuttle bus (FREE!)
- MTR (just like MRT of Singapore, just faster and longer. EIGHT cabins.)
- Bus
- Ferry
- Tram, uphill (@ Ocean park a.k.a. Ocean Express and The peak)
- Tram, bus-like
- Cable Car (@ Ocean park and Ngong Ping. Both very high up. on a mountain. maybe twice the height of singapore's cable car. the one at ngong ping is a very very long ride.)

a few people to mention:
Cousin Suhasrin for recommending the hostel
Hong Yu for the documents you gave
Mom and Dad for allowing, since its my first trip ever alone (not a family/school trip). self-planned somemore.
The Government a.k.a. NS for the money i get to save for the trip

Zakaria and Khoo Yee Hoong for the fun we had together during the trip.
though there were some quiet moments along the way(esp when we're too tired or hungry), the crazy moments, the joy and the time spent with the two of you are irreplaceable.
Love You Two.
Hope this wont be the last of us (and the rest who didnt join us for the trip).
Remember me when i have ORD-ed.

i love those 5 days.

2009-10-21T13:12:00.002+08:00

i cant believe my same intake, same company, same ERS, same dorm mate is gone.
rest in peace, my friend.

on a happier note, im finally done with duties.
no more medic duties for me.
also, no more medical centre for the rest of october!
reservist training tmr and friday. hongkong next week.

the three of us are very very excited about hongkong.
we stayed in camp yesterday to somehow get a preview of how hongkong days will be like.
its gonna be really chaotic, noisy and havoc!! SO EXCITING!!!

i cant wait to ord.
but at the same time, i think i'll miss some of my colleagues.

2009-09-30T18:15:00.002+08:00

hello people.

im going to ord real soon!
october should be my last month 'working'
november, i think i'll be at home more often.
and im still not ready for the life after that
im not even ready for november, which im supposed to look for a job and continue my driving.
to tell the truth, NS has become my confort zone, no matter how much i hated it.
maybe, i hate the fact that im paid so little and sometimes treated like shit. (and the organisation a little)
but still, at least im 'employed' and have some income. which is better than none.
and not forgetting, the friends that i've made in NS. some are great, but they're not from my batch.

my trip to hongkong is confirmed.
tickets booked.
left with hostel, which we may not get what we wanted as it may not be available.
im soooo excited about it.
the three of us keeps talking about it whenever we meet.
soooo much that we managed to plan nothing when we're supposed to plan something.
its hillarious though.

and how wish life always goes the way i want it to be.

2009-09-18T23:46:00.002+08:00

1 more day to raya.
means, im closer to my ord date.
2 and a half more months to go.
i am really really not ready for the life after that.
work? slack? start driving lessons? get ready for school?
i really dont know.
all i know is, i cant wait to throw aside my scdf uniform (till reservist of course)

btw, my friends and i have been planning on an overseas trip.
TO HONGKONG!
im very very excited about it. it better happen!
what makes it even better is that my bro and cousin may be following.
i hope my friends are really ok about that though i know its kinda weird.
i guess my bro got a free tix from SIA or smth. he'll be taking SIA while the rest will most probably take JetStar.
as for my cousin, she's very enthu about HK even though she's been there like lots of times.
well, she can be our 'tour guide'.
at least with the 2 of them, i feel safer.

countdown.
1 more day to raya.
+4 weeks to deepavali
+7 weeks to ORD.

11 weeks to ord!!!!!!!
gosh, that's fast!

If you should ever find someone new...

2009-09-11T23:29:00.005+08:00

if you should ever find someone new.

watched singapore idol?
remember mae sta? the 13th idol finalist.
she made me like this song all over again.
I'll Be There - The Jackson 5/Michael Jackson
mae sang it during her final audition round.

this song is so emo...

2009-09-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

hello to all, esp to those who just got to know of this blog.
this blog abit disappointing, i know.
but life hasnt been that great either.
there were some good times but they didnt come that often.
plus, blogging isnt that fun anymore.
mass upload of photos here is too troublesome

there's always facebook!
upload photos. put a caption. tag. comments.
save the trouble of long entries with countless photos.
i dont care if you all stalk me there. go ahead.
i admit i do stalk some of you too. hoho.
but thats the whole point of facebook right?
you tell people about your life. people go read/find out about you.
same goes for blogging.
some of you must be hoping to read stories of my life, whats happening with my life lately, what i did for the weekends, bla bla bla. correct?

im actually tired now.
work during fasting month is no fun. not when u have to do unnecessary stuffs.
im just pretty much pissed with things at work today.
i cant wait to ord. but at the same time, i dont think im ready for the life after ns.
even uni is starting to scare me a little.

i learnt something new this week.
having off during fasting month is no use. for me, at least.
woke up, online sleep online sleep online, break-fast
sleep till i cant sleep anymore. online till i dont know what to do online.
thats pretty much how i spent my effed-up off day last tuesday.

to my friends from jps, cmb and s25, im longing for an outing!!

2009-08-18T21:38:00.002+08:00

August has been Awesome so far.

national day weekend was busy with sister's wedding
alhamdulillah it all went very very well despite certain hiccups.
it'll be too long to be described in words here.
photos in facebook.

i love the spirit. and the enthusiasm showed by the whole family.
everyone made the day just so memorable.
09082009. certainly sweet memories for all of us.

last weekend was great too.
ubin with the medical centre people plus minds cafe after that
though reluctant with the idea of ubin, the day was definitely well spent
now, i dont mind ubin again. anyone?

i seem to click well more with the new guys than the old guys.

4 more days to fasting mth
+1 month to hari raya
+4 weeks to deepavali
+7 weeks to ORD

how time flies.

2009-08-02T11:15:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i was actually required in camp from 8-5 yesterday. A SATURDAY!
and all i do was to play card games and risk.
i just learned risk and its quite a fun game btw.

2009-07-27T12:42:00.010+08:00

YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME!
so cool, i was there at kallang to watch Liverpool against Singapore
i was among the crazy crowd of liverpool fans
the feeling cant be described. its way cooler than just awesome!
i love yesterday!

went with chang tianju, fan of liverpool ever since i knew her. i think.
btw, i knew her in pri 4. 10 years ago.
oh and theres this girl who joined us throughout the day
somewhat new friend made
we were supposed to show her the way from kallang mrt to the stadium initially.

reached there as early as 2pm just to queue.
didnt want to miss the chance of having a good seat
the queue when we reached wasnt that bad. got chance of having a good seat for a good view.
we got someone to look after our bags in the queue while we went to buy lunch

the queue when we reached.

our seat was somewhere along the middle line, 4th row from the bottom.

is that cool or what?!

there's actually some people who dared wearing man utd jersey to a liverpool match

such losers. stupid losers.

you know you're going to a liverpool match. you dont have to wear man utd jersey if you're not a liverpool fan rite? just wear some ordinary shirt will do.

bought kop seat tix somemore. how dumb.

cos of their stupidity, they got jeered!!! BY THE WHOLE KOP STAND.

the crowd of the KOP stand.

It started with Jamie Teo and John Class warming up the crowd.

team singapore warming up.

btw, i know more names of liverpool players then our very own team singapore.

1st half was kinda boring.

2nd half was great.

i mean, most of us went to watch the big players play rather than to watch good soccer, no matter how big a soccer fan he or she is.

im sure there's alot of us who dont care how many goals singapore got thrashed

we just want to see those big names. like torres, alonso and reina

a pity gerrard couldnt be there.

two names were heard most of the time : Torres and Alonso.

everybody wants torres. everybody didnt want alonso to leave liverpool.

i love it that the game got alot of subs. its not an everyday soccer kind of thing.

for the last 15 mins, it was almost like team singapore vs 1st 11 of liverpool team if you realised.

the starting lineup

and here are some shots of the players.

Benayoun

Jamie Carragher

Xabi Alonso

Albert Riera

Fernando Torres

Rafael Benitez thanking the crowd

The Liverpool Team thanking the crowd. can u identify the players?

other photos.

introducing, fahrul's girlfriend. i dont know her name btw.

introducing, the new girl(w/o cap). i dont remember her name.

i love love love liverpool.

im not a die hard fan, but i am a liverpool fan.

i dont regret spending that $88.

but im just disappointed i couldnt get to take photos with the players.

lastly, i want to say a BIG THANK YOU to my brother for buying me the liverpool shirt.

THANK YOU BRO!!

2009-07-21T21:05:00.002+08:00

haiz. the concert could have been yesterday night.
could have gotten that satisfaction and excitement yesterday.
but sadly all that has been postponed to 25th Jan 2010, which i cant confirm my commitment.

cant wait for this sunday. gonna watch liverpool in action @ national stadium.
HOW COOL!
i hope they put almost all of the 1st team players playing against singapore, and not just Gerrard.
i want to see/meet Torres can? and Reina.
oooohhh....i want to take photos with them!
i think im gonna be one of the crazy fans pushing each other to take photos or just shake hands with them.
maybe the photos shiquan took for me in anfield will put me at an advantage, if i show them.
I WISH.

4 more mths to ORD!

2009-07-04T14:45:00.002+08:00

i dont know if it is a good or a bad news.
the concert is postponed to 25th Jan 2010.
good : the concert isnt cancelled. and i'd have ord-ed by that time
bad : i may already have just started working, i may not be able to apply leave/off for it

2009-06-28T21:45:00.002+08:00

im beginning to hate H1N1.
my concert got postponed, and most likely cancelled, due to the virus.
i was like so looking forward to performing in esplanade.
but the virus crushed my awaited highlight of the year.

and not to mention how H1N1 made life at work more troublesome.

i hope the situation doesnt get worse.
or maybe not until liverpool decides to cancel its match here in Singapore.
please please do come!

2009-06-16T22:03:00.003+08:00

singaporeans are a funny bunch of people.
as of today, the number of H1N1 cases have shot up to 49.
remember the 1st case? everyone blamed her for bringing the virus to singapore.
why did she still go to the affected country?
why did she have to come back?
few mentioned about her quick response and responsibility to go to a doctor straight.
and the cases after, not much comments were made.
not even when some of them went out to meet friends, attend social functions and shopping before going to the doctor.
i just feel that it is unfair to the first victim in singapore.

Happy birthday Low Fang Ling. finally 20.

2009-05-31T14:50:00.002+08:00

i got rejected from NUS this year. da'aym.
chem engin dont want me there.
so im still at NUS mech engin.
i dont think i'll apply again next year.
i still prefer chem engin, but i shall not waste my time.
i heard can change course when u're already in it.
like, after 1 year/1 sem or smth.
maybe i can try.
even if not, i shall do my best and specialise for aero engin (which is part of nus mech engin).

6 more mths to ORD.

2009-05-20T19:39:00.003+08:00

yes yes. i am 20 already.
sounds old but im actually not.
i hope this year will be a great year for me.
like how i hope every year will be great. lol

lets look back at my 19th year.
all i can say is that NS took up 3/4 of my time.
not much highlights actually.
can only think of trips to malaysia.
Kedah with family in june and KL with cousins in nov.
and yup. no such thing as new gf and such for me.

how i celebrated my 20th birthday?

on the night of 15th may, my plan was just to wait till 12am hoping people will sms be birthday wishes.
also, kinda wanna know who'll be the first this year to wish me. and then to reply the person.
and then, there's this call from tianju.
truthfully, i thought it was kinda weird for her to call me. and i have yet to reply her sms.
so, i thought maybe the primary sch peeps wanted to conference call.
it'd be kinda cool to conference call you know.
i rmb doing that in sec sch (with my cmb-mates)...and it was fun.

the conversation goes somewhat like this:
T : hello. aidil ar? happy birthday. what are you doing?
A : hello. thanks thanks. erm.......im actually about to sleep.
T : what? going to sleep? so boring??!
.
.
.
T : can you like walk to your door and open your door. wait wait. but dont walk so fast.
A : eh?! why why?!
A : (peeping through his window) Eh! i can see you guys outside. why you all come...?!

something like that....but i really didnt expect them to come at midnight to give me a surprise.
i looked unglam. my house was in a mess, as always. and im in my sleep-look.
so, we went to the void deck instead.
if you saw the photos in facebook, i even changed my shirt when i went down to chat with them.
i think i panicked. i was shocked. and i stunned a while.

my sister didnt even give a clue on friends asking for address IN FACEBOOK!
its quite funny when i got to know that they asked quite a number of girl cousins and not my sister at first.
and my cousins mostly dont know my address. only know how to come here.

i took some time to sleep at night.
so so happy for what my friends did that night.

woke up early that morning to accompany mom to the market.
its for the chalet later that day.

at noon, i went for band.
nice to know that many of my bandmates remembers my birthday. (maybe cos of facebook?)
i think im more or less confirmed playing for css alumni band.
we'll be performing at esplanade on the 20th of july.
YES! ESPLANADE. grand place huh.
wasted if i miss this chance.

went straight for chalet after band.
long journey. from pandan all the way to east coast.
it was nice to have a chalet just ourselves.
though it was my birthday that day, we celebrated my sis and a cousin's birthday as well. since our birthdays are kinda nearby.

and that night it was damn fun.
we played card games and the name game+cherades
the card games arent that new to me. games like indian poker and werewolf.
indian poker was hilarious. kena sabo-ed a few times also.
werewolf was somewhat different from how i played it with my friends.
the name game + cherades was the most fun of all.
maybe cos of the names given and the act acted out.

i tried Wii also. so fun!
and tiring. esp boxing and rowing.
if i were to play every day, i think i will have big arms.
ooh...maybe i shld invest by buying it.
and how long will that take me to save.................

what i mentioned above may not sound fun.
but what i experienced on 16th May 2009 is really a day to remember.
im glad that i finally had a proper celebration after two years of having spent my birthdays either working or schooling.

thank you all for the wishes.
thank you jieli fangling hongyu tianju for the surprise.
thank you cousins for the chalet and celebration.

i had fun!

bout my uni application, i dont think i got what i applied for this year.
till now, i have yet to get a reply from NUS.
so most prob i didnt get it.
shall stick to mech engin then. pray hard i'll get into aero in the 4th year.
i shall work hard for it too!

2009-05-16T10:08:00.003+08:00

i cant believe i got a fuck call just as i was about to type happy moments.

happy stuffs first. in brief.

IM SIXTEEN TODAY!!
its sixteenth of may!

got a wonderful surprise from my pri sch mates.
really unexpected.
they appeared at my doorstep few minutes past midnight!
i feel so loved.

and i cant wait for the chalet later!
and no one can stop me from going.

yes, someone did try to 'stop' me from going.
its the fuck call from medical centre, saying i have to replace one of the duty medics cos he's having sore eyes.

I DONT CARE IF MY NAME WAS PICKED WHEN YOU DREW THE LOTS.
you are already at medical centre. why cant you do it?
if your reason is that you're not free, same goes for me!
what? you're the senior medic? are you sure YOU STILL ARE THE SENIOR MEDIC?
or you're clearing? isnt the sore eyes guy ord-ing before you and is clearing too?
dont try to spoil my birthday.

heee...my spirit still not dampened
cos i know i WILL be at the chalet, and it is THE event to look forward to.

thanks again tianju jieli fangling and hongyu!!

2009-05-10T01:06:00.003+08:00

two good news this week.
1. mas selamat is finally caught.
2. H1N1 alert went down to yellow.

more abt no. 2.
it really saved lots of trouble for healthcare workers like me, esp for my place which lacks manpower.
if not, at least FOUR guys are somewhat wasted during working hours manning major entrances of the camp.
plus, one guy have to stay at the main entrance overnight! which is somewhat unnecessary.
taking temperature, you dont need a medic to do that rite?
thank god all that is over for now.
hope the alert level will never be raised again.

if you call yourself a friend of mine, you shld know that my birthday is coming.
yes! im turning SIXTEEN soon.
i wish.
i hope this year's birthday will be great
unlike last year, which i spent the day at work with no one in camp knowing it was my birthday.
partly cos i didnt tell anyone or want anyone to know. and i was still new.
and unlike the year before also, which i spent it in school. i rmb having a test on that day plus PreU sem rehearsal....all the way till near 8pm.
i really really long for a good birth day.
actually, before even turning SIXTEEN, i already got a plan for my 21st.
a chalet for celebration. friends and families will be invited.
since the day gonna fall on a sunday.
PLUS I WILL BE SO FREE THAT YEAR.
NS will be over. and school havent start. what great timing.
look forward to it yea? i may need a planner for it too.
i suck at organizing parties.
just hope i can find a proper job after i ord, so that i have the cash for this big event.

anyway, hongyu. i tried seesha. is it the same like smoking?
haha.
hakim! (tho i doubt u will read this) you can invite me for seesha already. wont be the first-timer.
hahah.

2009-05-03T00:14:00.002+08:00

another long weekend coming to an end.
this year quite awesome eh? pub hols fall near weekends
weekends got longer.
but only next week abit 'wrong'
why vesak day on a saturday?!

oh anyways, i rmb my last labour day (last yr)
i had to work on that day
my very last day working in station
i'll never forget that day.
the day that i got 2 Death-On-Arrival cases..which is nth near to interesting.
haiz, those station days were way cooler than now.
kinda got bored of seeing those recruits/trainees trying to get themselves excused from training.
and they're always the same few ppl.

the swine flu now gave us more work to do.
actually, its only temperature screening.
but have to do in for everybody in the camp!
SARS days were better in a way that everyone got their own thermometer.
and i was on duty on wednesday.
how lucky. that night was the first night we have to take temperature for the ones booking in at night.
so from 2200 - 2359, we're like stationed outside the medical centre waiting to people to book in to take their temperature.
i know healthcare workers shldnt be complaining at this kind of time.
but well, im not a full time healthcare worker. it is not my profession.
i think i wldnt mind doing this if im the nurse at the hospital or smth.
in camp, the recruits/trainees now got an excuse to report sick.
i can tell that monday will be a crazy day!

i've watched X-men Origin : Wolverine.
i dont think it's as bad as those reviews.
it is a typical x-men movie to me.
go catch it if you have the time and the money.

and today, i went for the first commonwealth alumni band practice.
our prev conductor gave us a chance to perform at the ESPLANADE.
HOW COOL! and how fortunate cmb is.
i dont want to give this a miss.
but then again, im having 2nd thoughts bout playing.
i dont know. the pieces are not that exciting.
but if exciting, it will be challenging. and we dont have the time for it.
and i understand that it isnt easy to get everyone present for all the practices.
everyone got their other commitments too.
and, my closer group of friends are uncertain bout playing too.
as for now, im in. but, i may just pull myself out of it.

so if im playing for alumni, i'll have things to do every day.
work(ns) on weekdays. alumni prac on saturdays. tutoring on sundays.
now, should i fit in driving too?

2009-04-25T19:13:00.002+08:00

i was on off yesterday. pm off the day before.
as of this morning, i was fully recharged.

i 'so-called' organized an outing today.
surprise surprise, its an outing with my NS-mates, the CD people.
more specifically, the ones from medical centre.
the plan was to play badminton at hometeamns @ bukit batok
but, being on off yesterday, i wasnt quite sure of the confirmed plans.
only knew the time of the booking of the court.
there was actually another plan, which was to play bowling, that i only got to know this morning.
well, thats besides the point.
the point is, TODAY WAS A SUCCESS.
i finally got to go out with my cd(ns)mates/med ctr peeps.
i co-organized.
and it went well, with NINE people present.
we bowled, we played badminton.
it was somewhat like a mini sports day for us, esp if we went on to swim, soccer or laser quest after that.
but still, the point is, today was a success. i went out with my cd(ns) mates.

and i actually scheduled tutoring today too, as i wont be free tomorrow.
i came home just at the right time, or maybe a lil too late.
the kids were already here.
rushed off to shower and got myself ready to tutor.
busy man, eh? lol.

so now, im very very tired. almost all my energy restored drained out during the badminton game.
and im going JB tomorrow. most probably doing shopping for mum too.
though its exhausting, this weekend is one of those that i love.
i dont like my weekend to be wasted.
i get to have family time, time with friends, passing on knowledge and also earning a lil extra income.
all these in ONE weekend.
isnt that great?

i need some outing that i can take a lot of photos!!
who's free?

2009-04-09T22:25:00.002+08:00

ooooooooh...it was great having a day off today.
and it was the start of my long weekend. total of four days of rest.
really needed it.

actually, it kinda started yesterday afternoon.
was sent out for some SCDF photo shoot at abt 11am together with one other guy(dennis)
yes. photo shoot.
it is for some annual report thingy.
and we're so-called representing the EMS part of scdf together with one station paramedic.
they wanted to take some shots of the EMS people in action
i was actually supposed to be the casualty, and dennis the medic
but something cropped up and i became the medic, dennis the driver.
it was fun. really!
its the professional kind of photo shoot with make-up artist all that.
so cool larrr!!!
so honoured to be 'selected' for the photo shoot.

SYF for secondary school band ended yesterday.
CMB got silver. though disappointing, im sure they did their best.
and silver is a good start for KDS, since it was his first syf as a conductor.
many other schools got shocking results too.

as for american idol, finally scott is out.
i know he's talented. esp when he's visually impaired.
im not a fan of his. his voice aint that nice either.
but, anoop should be out too!!

for the next 3 days, i kinda dont have anything to do.
i guess staying at home is quite alright.
i can SLEEP SURF and TEEVEE!
but anyone is welcome to invite me out.
if im not lazy, i'll join in. heeeee.

2009-04-02T23:09:00.002+08:00

did you watch american idol?
man, this season's contestants are really great!
im rooting for allison and kris allen. how bout you?
actually, for now, i only want scott and anoop to be out.
that adam guy, he's good. but i dont want him to win. heh.

weekend is finally here. just one more day of work and its weekend already.
im so tired this week. even though im not that busy at work.
but im just sick and tired of doing the same thing each day.
and the shits at work, though not as much now.
each day im just looking forward to the weekend.

and i really need a good weekend!
a weekend that i can really relax and destress.
even if its an outing to the beach just to scream out.

a part of me cant wait for uni to start, while the other knows that its just an excuse to forget NS.
anyway, i found this really cool scholarship that i may apply for.
SIA-Mendaki thingy. smth like SIA scholarship, but specially for malays.
not racist. there are other types of SIA scholarship for the other races too.
kinda interested in it. partly cos, the bond is with SIA.
correct me if im wrong --> if its a bond, unlikely to get retrenched rite?

oh, and SYF for secondary school bands has started.
this year definitely more than just 3 Gold with Honours, unlike the prev one.
and too bad for me, i cant go listen to CMB as my duty falls on the day of their SYF.
all the best to them and esp to KDS for his first.

urgh, blogging isnt as fun as before.
no pictures. my apologies. no friends to camwhore with.

2009-03-22T20:25:00.002+08:00

guess what, i got to step into an army camp for the first time yesterday!
attended the commissioning parade of OCS batch 72/08.
the parade was, erm, just like any other parades arh.
but non-ns people seemed rather wow-ed by it.
oh, and you can really see the proud faces of parents.
they really have this wide smile on them, seeing they little boy-boy turned into a man.
a man whom the nation trusts to lead a group of men into keeping singapore safe.

somehow, there's this feeling inside me wishing i was part of the contingent.
someone who commissioned and got the rank 2LT.
it'd be awesome if i got that rank.
yes, i know you people are thinking "are you kidding me?"....esp since i chose to got out of the ERS course (a course in SCDF equivalent to SISPEC)

and, seeing the military band yesterday made me miss band even more
i kept telling my friends who were with me yesterday that i could have been there playing with the band for that parade.
i really miss band. playing my saxee and also the friends.
but maybe not so much of the stress of playing and leading well for an upcoming competition.
just for concerts is good enough.

saw so many familiar faces.
pri sch friends, sec sch friends, jc friends and even those from scdf.
and it was partly the reason that i didnt wanna go at first.
it's kinda depressing to tell ppl that im in scdf. dont ask why.
but then, it was kind of good to see some of them.
anyway, thank you jieli for inviting. and congrats on commissioning.
congrats to the rest of the 72/08 too! esp the ones i know.

ah, no photos here. but if you're really interested to see some, go to facebook.

its so dreadful to go to work tomorrow.
i dunno how it happened and what's gonna happen.
im the only one in my room tomorrow, out of 6.
3 on offs, 1 sent out to mandai, 1 in-charge of sickbay.
on top of that, im the duty medic with one guy understudy.
question marksss. and wish me luck.

2009-03-17T23:31:00.006+08:00

If You See Kay - The Script

nice song.(click play)

anyway, i did my uni application thingy. for the 2nd time.
i hope i get what i chose. which is NUS chem engin.
i dunno why, but im in love with that course.
even if i dont get in, i'll still be contented with what i already have. NUS mechanical engin.
and then i shall study hard to make sure i get to specialise aeronautical.
easy to say, i know.

im suddenly all excited bout uni.
maybe its just me cant wait to ORD.
9 more months!

2009-03-08T11:46:00.004+08:00

yesterday was a day well spent, i believed
did quite alot in just one day.

initial plan was just to go minds cafe with my jc pals as i had this urge to just try out the games cafe.
yes, im quite slow to only have tried it now.
i used to think its expensive and wont be fun, since its just a cafe for board and card games.
can play that anywhere else without paying.
plus, most of the games there we dont know how to play.
but it turned out to be fun yesterday.
so fun that the almost 2 hrs we spent there isnt anywhere near to enough.

played 2 games only actually.
one of which is a game recommended by the person who works there. lifeboats.
it's like as if the guy knew us too well.
he was like 'try this game. this game you can sabo your friends'
our favourite part: to decide which boat to have a leak and which sailor to throw out.
really fun i tell you. and most of us had the same victim in mind.

jengga was next. just cos it was a game most of us know and we only had arn half hr left to spend.
we had actually booked movie tickets after that, thats why the short time at minds.
jengga is a stupid game. but ahmad go SO excited over it.

rush rush rush. from prinsep all the way to lido.
oh! we met MR TBJ on the way with MLY. lol.
so its kinda confirmed that they're now a couple.
and ive finally got to know my fav jasmine tan gave birth to a girl! last year.
the baby must be big already. maybe can crawl already.
i wonder if the baby got dimples just like the mom.
i miss my sweet sweet teacher, though she's really not the eye candy type.

watched Role Model.
funny but dumb show. chose that show partly cos watchmen is fully booked and my bloody valentine is too expensive to watch.
either i was too engrossed in the movie or that the movie is too short.

by the time the movie ends, some of my friends have to go somewhere else or wanted to go home already.
since i was already in town, i decided to join in my cousins for karaoke-ing since the timing was just nice. just about time my cousins meet at the karaoke place.
initially, thought i wouldnt be able to make it, thinking that i wld hang out with my friends till late. but yea, turned out otherwise. the night was still young when they wanted to call in an end.
good thing i prepared my attire.

so it was the whitemen and pinkladies night at the lounge.
and all of us, the usual-suspects (as what we call it) were there.
its a hard-to-get kinda thing to have all of us there as some of us work shifts.
so its really a date to mark in our calendar. the night where everyone was present.
and im glad i made it there. a great night spent, though im not really a singer.

and now i feel so 'ahhhhhhhh~~' (the positive tone)
man, i really need this kind of weekend.
a weekend that made me not think bout my reality.
having to serve the nation is really such a pain.
especially with people who creates misery to your life.
people who thinks that they are the KING of NSFs when they are actually just a pathetic fill in the blank to the outside world.
people who have no standards that they have to be so fake so that they are praised.
they are the ones that are so selfish they they dont even dare to be true to their ownself.
humans have feelings. they dont.
and dont get me started on responsibilities....

damn. i shall not go on. let me enjoy this sunday.

2009-02-15T10:07:00.001+08:00

my life has been quite dull that my last entry was almost two weeks ago.

about that cat, of course i do feel the difference without her.
there's no longer a cat to walk me home from my void deck.
to take the lift with me when im back from work.
there's no more calling her name.
there's no more telling "i'll give you food when i come back. just wait here" when she only appeared when we're going out.
i miss her. though she's just a stray cat that frequent my home for food and sometimes a place to nap.

this weekend isnt a great one.
to go back to camp on a saturday for only 2 hrs is shit. plus, didnt do much there.
and tomorrow, going back to camp for duty!
damn sian la in camp on a sunday.
lucky i got half-day OIL to use on monday, if not i'll just die there.

and seriously, there isnt much motivation for me to work in camp.
everybody's covering their own big ass.
even for a small little thing, the blame is pushed to the inferior.
the superior wont take the blame, and wont even help his men, even for a small matter.
the situation just suck.
he needs his men. w/o his men, he cant do anything. but why does he treat his men like shit.
WITHOUT HIS MEN, HE CANNOT DO ANY WORK.
please gain the support of your men, or else you're a fucking useless INVERTED-COMMA-LEADER.
if everyone were to rebel, you'll be the first to die.

but fortunately for me, i have reliable friends who are at the same position as me. credits goes to them for the drive, though little, that i have.

2009-02-05T23:31:00.002+08:00

dearest comot a.k.a. chu-cut,

you have been one of the most wonderful pet ever. you may not be living with us, but to us, you are one of us. you are really one of the smartest cat i've ever known. to be able to recognise us, our home and even our relatives. and it's as though you understood what we said to you almost all the time. those time that we played together when you were younger (when kitkit and chopey havent existed) are not forgotten. i know i may have been harsh on you some times, but im sure you know there's still love and care. i sure will miss you rubbing your face against my leg, 'meow-ing' to me for food, seeing you every morning waiting at the gate before i go to work, etc. you may not be that cute, but you are certainly smart and well-trained. i feel so sorry for you to have caught a fatal virus, especially after i knew you weren't that old yet. you will be missed!

one of your owners.

i have to admit this, i did teared up abit upon hearing the news of her death. and kept on having moments of tears collecting in my eyes whenever she came into my mind. like i mentioned, she is one of us. and i was in camp at that time. just a pity i didnt get to see her again before my mum buried her.

2009-01-15T18:54:00.001+08:00

last weekend was my brother's engagement day.
it's somewhat a day when the guy's side sort of 'book' the girl, by giving her a ring and also something as a mark of the 'hantaran' (i dont know the english word for it)
it is also something like to let everyone (in the family) knows that they are going out together. (traditional belief i supposed)
there's also some gifts exchange.
btw, the guy's side will go to the girl's house.

some photos.

siblings.

cousins

sister and I with FUTURE SISTER-IN-LAW. =)

Cousins with future sis-in-law.

REDs. we planned to wear red. happening colour.

these are part of the people who went for the gifts exchange.

some time last year, it was my sister's engagement day.
last weekend was my brothers.
meaning, i now have a future brother in law and a future sister in law.
HOW COOL!! and lucky for me, they're nice people.

wooh, and it somehow means, by the time i enter uni, i should have a brother and a sister in law already. hahahhahahaah.
how time flies. my siblings are getting married already.
and too bad for them, mine wont be that soon.
it'll be five years later when i finish uni.
get stable income...yada yada...alot of years from now till my turn?? hahahakx
why am i even thinking of this??

im just happy for my sister and brother!
and my parents for finally having a future son and daughter in law.

ironically, im in love with this song.
Mad - Ne-yo

Mad - Ne-Yo

2009-01-06T19:02:00.002+08:00

belated entry on countdown to 2009.
just something brief here.

had countdown with my beloved Jurong Primary friends.
we kind of promised to go on this countdown together, after 2 yrs of not going together.
we have been having countdowns together since the countdown to 2005.
however, only 5 made it to the whole event.
nevertheless, some made the effort to meet us for a while even though they had others plans.

fangling had plans with her bf and their jc friends.
however, she gave me a call earlier that day to inform that she'll be meeting us for dinner.
how cool! at least get to meet on NYE.
she brought her bf along btw.
had swensens for dinner. and guess what? i actually brought along some swensens voucher but totally forgot about them there. haha. i didnt tell my friends though.
just some free baked rice of choice and free sundae of choice.
why did i forget?!!

fangling left, and we went to meet nizal who was nearby.
somewhat visit him cos he just had an operation, something bout his appendix. maybe get it removed.
chatted with him for quite some time. and a photo of course.

then yongxian called. she's joining us for fireworks! and she's with her bf.
and its the first time meeting him. cool~

we reached 'the viewing place' at around 1030 and it was already damn crowded
whats funny was that the place was infested with banglas.
not saying they shouldnt be there, but it just made me feel like im the foreigner.
they were the ones pushing around, climbing onto whatever available just to get better view.

fireworks were ok. but i find it abit too short.
the finale was nice. but 7 mins isnt enough to satisfy me.

obviously, a grp photo before we left.

the photo above seems kinda red on the right. funny story.
i had this plan of having a colour theme. approached hongyu.
she kinda said red, but it wasnt confirmed.
i set aside one red shirt for that event, and wore it.
tianju saw our little conversation on facebook, so she wore red.
hongyu unintentionally wore something orange-red.
even though its only 3 of us, the rest felt abit left out.

left off straight after fireworks.
but to hongchin's home.
we could have just gone home actually but wanted to spend more time together.
but some of us were just too tired once we reached his house that we fell asleep.
so, its more like we went his house to sleep.

i really am looking forward to seeing these bunch of people.
its really amazing how we always talk about pri sch days whenever we met and never get bored or run out of things to talk about.

before i end, just another photo on the five who were there throughout the event.

2008-12-30T22:30:00.001+08:00

tomorrow's last day of 2008.
like every other years, 2008 also suck and rock at the same time.

let me just recap events that happened in 2008.

1) The year without my pink IC.
NS pretty much sucked to me. or rather, i still think that i should have gone to SAF Band.
i still have no idea why SCDF takes in people majority who are MATs, BENGs or the indian version of it.
but there are good experiences gained from scdf too.

2) Being Ambulance Attendant at Alexandra Firestation.
gosh, i still miss those times! till i cant sleep thinking of it yesterday night.
all thanks to A121 that was deployed to my block (Bt Batok) all the way from Alexandra just as i was about to go to sleep.
i heard most of the new batch of medic trainees want medical centre. still wondering if i should really ask around for switch if they happen to get posted to Alex FS.
but that decision will pangseh-ed the docket dept real bad.

3) Almost a Sergeant.
not really almost. i chose to drop out at the 3rd week.
i just cant imagine myself as a firefighter. cant imagine myself going through the trainings.
the people there are great though. still in contact with a few of them.
and they're nice enough to remember me, the three week-er.

4) MC, just for CMB Alumni Concert.
none of my instructors knew, but it was worth it.
i had fun. i did what i like and missed, playing my SAXay (therefore the pic above)
the concert wasnt as great as we wanted it to be, but it wasnt totally our fault.
but again, we were performing to people who mostly dont even appreciate our music.
still, it was something nice. the first time i performed as an alumni. and it was a concert with representatives from every batches of brando tan.
im looking forward to the next! when will it be?

5) A Level Results and Uni Application
A's results were great, though i was expected to get better.
heck, i think i did well enough.
but, i didnt know i could do and would do A's before O's.
wasnt even thinking of JC route before sec 4 prelims, if i rmb correctly.
all thanks to dunno-what-course-to-take-in-poly, i chose PJC!
uni application wasnt easy too.
went to open houses but still no clue which course to take.
kinda anyhow picked and got into mech engin @ NUS.
oh yea, i didnt really consider NTU. just applied for fun.
so, NUS for me. might consider reapplying. still have 2-3 mths to think of it.
cant imagine me attending uni though. and now im getting rusty all thanks to NS.

6) Kedah Trip
didnt expect it to be quite fun. maybe cos i get to hang around with certain cousins and siblings instead of just parents aunties and uncles.
it was really a week w/o NS in mind.

7) KL Trip with Cousins
fun fun fun. even w/o the shopping. camwhored. partied. everything!
it was smth like THE WEEKEND of the year.

well, thats more or less the highlights of 2008.
i hope 2009 will be just as great or even better, certainly w/o the down part of 2008.

just a few things to mention bout 2009.

ORD!!
welcoming bro-in-law
and sis-in-law (if not, 2010)
decide on uni course
get driving license

and im thinking of going f1. anyone wanna go with me?

2008-12-26T21:16:00.007+08:00

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day was fun.

was invited out last min on Xmas eve, with cindy driving.
out all the way from 9pm to 7am the next day.
we just got nothing to do, so we kinda roamed around singapore aimlessly.
oh btw, we werent celebrating xmas.

went to dempsey at first with the intention of having dinner. but ended up eating ice cream and brownie at Ben & Jerry.
sent sihui home (j. east), fetched zhiqi (yew tee)

orchard after that just to have a feel of xmas as the time was almost midnight.
traffic wasnt as bad as i expected, jam only outside far east. but smooth along orchard road.
we wind down our windows and screamed out 'merry christmas' to anyone we felt like.
but singaporeans are boring. they dont reply back.
only a handful did. so few that i can actually remember them.
the couple on harley, the family in some small car, and the girl outside rendezvous hotel.

carls jr @ ECP after that, with an interesting bitching session.
bitched about anyone and everyone. even shruthi made it on our list.
to those who knew her, YES! we talked about her.
hakim was the most enthu whenever she became the topic of our conversation.
and he would share whatever he knows bout her. right kim?

we were actually bo liao enough to go MOUNT FABER after that.
and we spent barely 10 mins there as we couldnt really find a place to sit and talk.
oh! i met shen hongyu there! like, what a place to bump into each other la!
it was after 3am btw.

so, we decided to go to changi instead. to see leftovers and to go to the beach.
more like just making use of cindy to drive us all over SG.
played with the swing and see-saw at the playground, making a lot of noise and laughters. i think we woke up alot of people at the beach.
it seemed like we we deprived of such stuffs, every little thing excite us or humourous to us.
we went downtown east after that, just for toilet and a bottle of green tea!

by that time, its almost 6. so we settled for jalan kayu for breakfast since it was somewhere near where jongling lives. PUNGGOL!
zhiqi saw the first bus, yet she thought its not yet the last bus! how bimbotic.

that trip actually showed how boring singapore is. we just couldnt settle at one place. had to go all over singapore.
or maybe, we're just making use of the fact that we can go anywhere without the trouble of taking public transport (have a driver).

i had barely four hours of sleep after that.
went picnic with maternal side on xmas afternoon.
had a lil exchange of presents too. mostly the adults.
and its kinda funny to see them getting all excited bout the presents.
well, im sure it did let some stress out of them. and thats a good thing!

now its time for photos!

Outing with Pri Sch Friends

hehe.

Singapore Flyer

Christmas Eve & Christmas Day

heheh. so fun!
because of all that. im damn tired now.

2008-12-21T20:50:00.000+08:00

fuuh. weekend was quite well spent.
went out every day. from friday to sunday.

met up with the jurong pri friends for dinner on friday.
asked eugene and ahmad of s25 out for fun so that i wont be alone at home on sat night.
went out with parents today.

today's outing was most unexpected.
supposed to go East Coast Park to just relax after parents went for THREE wedding lunches.
but i suggested to go Marina Barrage instead.
somehow, we ended up at Singapore Flyer cos my dad dont quite know the way to Marina Barrage.
and my dad asked out of the blue if we wanted to ride it.
i didnt want to actually. COS I DIDNT BRING MY CAMERA!
didnt bring camera. and dressed TOO CASUAL.
i wore something with 'picnic' in mind laaa.

so, yea. we took a ride.
with only camera phones to take photos with.
well, i cant reject the invitation cos we were all free just now and dont know when else we're all free to ride it.
embarrassing but cool, we were the most underdressed.

im too lazy to post photos.
wait till i get photos of friday and saturday then maybe i'll post them all.

monday's tomorrow. SO FAST!
but i just cant wait for christmas to come.
a rest day for me!

2008-12-16T20:30:00.002+08:00

i dont understand.
lets say, you're going for a job/scholarship interview.

will you come out with a list of possible questions to prepare yourself?
you will. right?
then, should you come out with answers to that questions?
you should. right?
but do you properly phrase those answers out OR do you just brainstorm and come out with points to answer?

as for me, i will choose the 2nd option.
the 1st one is simply ridiculous and will seem fake to the interviewers, isnt it?
especially if the anwers are politically correct answers instead of logical ones.

i just dont know how to explain in words.

let me relate this to something i quite miss. studies.

when you're studying, do you memorise word by word in useful sentences or just pick out keywords?

when you're copying notes in lectures, do you copy exact word by word said out by the lecturers or do you just write down important phrases?
when you're revising then, maybe, you'll rewrite it into proper sentence. but somehow, you will still only memorise keywords, correct?

just an example. may or may not explain my point.

When two plates move toward one another, they will form a subduction zone. In a subduction zone, the subducting plate, which is normally a plate with oceanic crust due to larger density, moves beneath the other plate, which can be made of either oceanic or continental crust.

two plates move toward one another -> form subduction zone ->a plate with
oceanic crust -> larger density -> moves beneath the other plate.

something like that?

then maybe in answer booklet you'll write :
when two plates move towards one another, a subduction zone is formed where the denser plate with oceanic crust moves beneath the other.

what i want to point out is, you may be given a source where everything is sentenced out properly. but somehow, you'll only remember keywords and then give out a sentence of your own during exams. so, why bother LEARNING and maybe memorising IN SENTENCES?
abit unnecessary isnt it?

get my point now?

yes?

no?

urgh. never mind.

to certain people who made my life unnecessarily miserable, i would like to dedicate a song for you all. (but go get the song yourself and play it.)

The All American Reject - Gives You Hell.

(extract)
When you see my face hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

2008-12-09T20:33:00.003+08:00

was kinda bored online so i went to look at my previous entries.
esp on my journey to A Level (preparation, prelims and all).
obviously, lots of complains. no time, stress, peer pressure etc.
but it was all memorable. really a process that is not to be forgotten despite the pressure.

my road to A's wasnt smooth, esp with my mom being hospitalised for around 2 mths.
catching up with others wasnt easy.
but i have to say, i AM proud of myself. esp for the results i obtained.
though some subjects wasnt the best i could get, i still am satisfied.
and to hell with GP. i was never a good GP student. no offence to my GP tutor. you're nice!
i guess AAB for H2 subjs was fantastic, though triple As wld be PERFECT (and was expected out of me since i was the 10-pointer who chose PioneerJC. stupid me, you may say).

and i mentioned quite a number of times on my worries being rivals with students from better and more well-known colleges.
after knowing a few results of friends from such colleges, there's no regret being in Pioneer, for my results is just as well (if not, better) as them.

ahhh...i think i miss life in college.

2008-12-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

looks like i wont be buying a new camera yet. haiz...
felt so tempted to buy at SITEX but the queue was such a turn off.
similar offers at some electrical/electronic stores, but somehow it doesnt tempt me.
maybe cos there's no occasion for me to buy.
like, if i buy at SITEX, i can say ''Oh, i got it at sitex. great offer!"
guess i'll still keep on sharing with my sister for the time being.

anyway, met up with some of the S25 ppl last sat.
but this time, it wasnt just the usual few.
went to glasshouse fishnco first then to timbre@substation
about a year ago, we had an outing to the same fishnco and celebrated the same person's birthday.

we had a hard time looking for timbre. walked from glasshouse to clarke quay only to realise we already missed it. we were looking for the substation one, not the other timbre.
timbre was nice. but if only everyone was more energetic.
it could be much more fun if everyone was just high, but enjoying the great live music at the same time.
nevertheless, it was still fun hanging out with them!
and im still not satisfied. i wanna meet up with MORE PEOPLE from s25.

the music at timbre made me even more in love with some songs!
songs by the script is awesome!!
just to recommend : The Man Who Cant Be Moved and Breakeven.
loves.

looking at my schedule, im booked almost every weekend and public holidays.
booked all the way till CNY. how cool!
and im booked for events/outings! with family, with friends.
CANT WAIT!

2008-11-30T14:55:00.000+08:00

=). yumin, is this ok?

another weekend not really well spent.
went over to SITEX ytd @ Expo.
the crowd was normal.
but the queue at Canon was fkin LONG.
there goes my intention of buying a new digi cam.
saw a friend queueing and he told me that there are 2 queues that i will have to go through.
and he spent an hour at each queue.
no way im gonna just stand there with my sis for 2 long hours.

but ironically, we were willing to queue for the other exhibition, JOHN LITTLE.
i think we wldnt have queued if we didnt spend that long choosing items to buy, though we didnt have alot to buy compared to others.
just a basket full. most others were either a trolley full or a big shopping bag full.

friday night was great going out with cousins.
for the first time ever since i joined the 'clique', there was full attendance! the cousins at least.
there's photos. but wont be posting them up.

im bored. i chose to stay home yet im bored here.

ELEVEN DAYS to A YEAR serving the nation.
wooh.

2008-11-25T20:43:00.005+08:00

these few days, there's nth much to do online.

but i decided to gave myself a try at this new (to me) website called scrapblog.
a pretty cool website.
show u what i got from the webbie.

nice??

2008-11-15T14:32:00.011+08:00

im so lazy to type out details of my KL trip with my cousins.
cos, there's alot to tell.
it was SO MUCH FUN!
lots of cam whoring of course.
but to quote one of my cousins, we waited months for it yet the 3 days went by so fast like it wasnt enough.
WE WANT TO GO AGAIN!

let the photos do the talking.

day 1.............

day 2..............

day 3...............

anyway, i think im in love with canon cameras.
i like their functions, like the colour thingy (rmb the ice hockey post?).
and my cousin's canon cam can take multi shots.
not those 'shoot-shoot-shoot' type. but it gives a few seconds allowance before the next shot is taken. gives u time to change ur pose, instead of showing ur slow-motion actions.

show u examples.

eg. 1.....

eg. 2.....

its much more fun when u see the photo individually one after another.

now, that's alot of photos isnt it??

there's alot more though. not gonna post them up.

and these are only from 3 out of 6 cameras we brought there.

all thanks to digital cameras, no more guilt in wasting films.

im lazy to blog about work too. probably cos i dont bother to care anymore.
but i was certainly damn pissed when he said that line to me yesterday.
you're just lucky im patient.
but you cant stop me if i tell around your bad.

2008-11-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

i just dont understand.

wont one reflect on one's action?
think whether what he did was the best action that could be made?
and if it wasnt, wldnt one try his best so as to not repeat his mistakes?

how do you define a good leader?
is it one that thinks all the rules he creates are the best for his people, even when the people dont agree to it? and yet do nothing to compromise.
is it one that gives no chances to first timers (newbies) for mistakes that are minor?
is it one that gives more punishment than advices?

to me, the best way to correct mistakes is not always punishment.
but if only punishments are given, what does that reflects on the giver?

chances are not meant to be recorded and remembered, in black and white.
chances, unless for something major, are supposed to be forgive and forget.
if it is recorded, it somehow means that 'i will never forget what you have done and you're gonna get it for the next one', which gives the tone that you're aimed and observed, and i'll be waiting for the next error you make.

a good leader SHOULD be a good listener, especially for his men.
and he should NEVER flaunts authority.

do i make sense here?

i am just pissed at certain people.
he is getting hatred instead of earning respect.

2008-11-02T19:19:00.003+08:00

boring weekend.
shld have joined TNP Big Walk08, looked kinda fun.

cant wait for the next weekend though.
will be away in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
whats exciting is that only cousins(and partners for some) are going.
and one is all the way from Kedah, Malaysia (somewhere northern).
so as to meet up, we planned to meet somewhere centre.
nothing much to expect from KL, just loads of fun i hope.
have the feeling i wont shop much too, though i got some money to spend.

and my parents took the chance too.
not wanting to be all by themselves at home, they planned to go Tanjong Pinang, Indonesia the same weekend.
i could have followed if it is some other weekend sehhh....
and my two poor cats have to be alone at home.

friday faster come!

2008-10-26T15:04:00.001+08:00

GUESS WHAT?!

i went to watch HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3: SENIOR YEAR yesterday.

how cool.

almost 3/4 in the cinema were school kids.

and i actually watched it with 2 other NSFs. how mature.

the movie is typically disney.

the songs are OK, those that i wont listen for a long time.

but the dance steps are not bad, unlike the steps for We're All In This Together in the 1st movie.

and somehow, the movie reminds me of Hairspray. ALOT.

of all the cast, i think ryan evans (lucas grabeel) is the best. in terms of singing, dance and acting.

the piano girl (Olesya Rulin) is actually kinda cute too.

went bowling after that.

last bowl when i was still an MOC trainee.

that's like in Feb/March.

everyone who was bowling at that time were mostly pros, making us feel damn small.

and of course we werent serious when playing.

as in, made a fool of ourselves.

whats best about yesterday was that it made me not think about work.

2008-10-25T11:36:00.003+08:00

situation at work has become worse.
it makes me look forward to end of office hrs every day.
i thought i had a good work environment.
but now, i feel unsecured.
every movement is closely observed.
extras has become more unavoidable.
every action must be done after much thinking so as to be 'right'.

now, i regret leaving station.

thank god for this long weekend.
at least i have one day off from work.
should be enjoying myself these 3 days.
going out today and monday.
shioK!

employer ill-treat maid, maid complain, now employer scared.

2008-10-19T14:36:00.002+08:00

is it very shocking to know that i own a psp?

went out with some of the class guys yesterday.
and we actually did nth other than just to walk arn in town and have dinner together.
initial plan was to go funan.
but the stuff we wanted wasnt ready to be collected.
plan B was to watch movie.
but either some have already watched the movie we wanted or the timing was kinda late for us.
so we just walked around town.
been some time since i did that.
walking around town aimlessly, just to window shop or look at people.
but it wld be better if everyone was high and energetic.

i finally had my TCC.
sick of starbucks and coffee bean, so i kinda forced them into going either tcc or coffee club.

anyway, met zhiqi on the way home. (i have to type this here! kind of the highlight of the day)
it has been ages since i saw her. i think, since we collected our O LEVEL results.
if only i had more time to talk with her.
we shld really go out and catch up with each other la (plus the others).
i shld be free every weekends and public hols ~

2008-10-17T19:28:00.003+08:00

FINALLY WEEKENDS ARE HERE!!

urgh. this new intake of recruits are irritating.
their abusing their advantage.
ever since the death incident of PTE FOO, they are allowed to visit the MO for every single thing, even a teeny weeny problem like sore throat, at any time.

recently, there's like no break in the morning.
sick parade all the way till lunch time.
afternoon also about the same.
been going home later than usual.
there are ppl reporting sick, screening, casualty, whatever shit.
we medics are the victim of all these.

and it doesnt help when there are people who makes it difficult for others.

shall not reveal too much here.

somehow, it looks like ns life wont be as fun as it used to be.
when i say fun, it doesnt mean that we slack.
it will be nice if we all do work and enjoy at the same time.

maybe im just different.
i dont like to 'eat' my own men.

quoted from spiderman,
'' with great power, comes great responsibility ''
responsibility doesnt comes when giving out punishments, and only punishments.
leaders should be respected, and far from being hated.

i feel that somehow when ur man is at fault, the one in charge is partly to blame too. isnt it?
juniors arent always wrong and seniors arent always right.

it isnt easy, i know.
but somehow, if the mistakes are repeated over and over again, maybe there's nothing else to do.

anyway, just to make it clear, i dont have any problem with anyone at work.
though im not sure whether it's a two-way thing.

enough of that.
ns now is just urgh!.

i wonder if i have stalker.
someone who knows about this blog (and maybe friendster, home add, blaaablaaa) and pretended to not know it.
someone who knows me more than what he seems to know.

HELLO!,
If i do have one.

2008-10-04T11:25:00.006+08:00

yesterday was the first time i watched ice hockey.
and i got myself a souvenir!
its puck! for free!

thanks to the guy for hitting the puck out of the ring.

met up with hongyu and tianju yesterday for dinner/supper.
jus a lil catching up before hongyu goes to aust for abt 2 wks.

seems like everyone gets to go overseas (other than malaysia)
even the army guys get to be sent to countries like taiwan and brunei.
and tianju's going japan this dec.
when's my turn?
.....yes, i know i rejected my chance of going brunei with the Emergency Rescue Spec.

watching ice hockey, though they're only practising, is kinda interesting.
...and it isnt very far from my place too!
anyone wanna go again? haha.
but must choose a safer seat next time. behind the nets!
the pug is rock-hard. and the players hit them with high speeds.

hongyu's new cam is very fun to play with.
canon. but dont know which model.
damn cool cam.

see, we can set the photo to show black and white, with only one colour shown.
in the photo above, supposed to be pink.

show u more examples.

blue.

yellow.

cool huh. makes me feel like having a canon cam too.

to end off, just some pics of hari raya.

cousins + sis fiancé + grandaunt joining in secretly at the back.

our tradition. taking photos of our footwear.
guess which is mine?
easy guess eh?

no family photos. didnt took any. sadly.

going for another round of visiting tonight.
maybe more photos.

selamat hari raya!

2008-10-02T14:08:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

heheh. MY NAME!
yup, the month which my name is being called out very very often.
started from mid last mth actually.
....i was born in this mth according to the muslim calendar.

1st day was great, though nothing special.
as usual, prayers in the morning and then waited for my maternal side to gather at my place.

so, a day of syawal is gone.
im looking forward to more visitings or ppl coming my house.
well, its almost like we get to do this only once a year.

back to work tomorrow.
dreads....

2008-09-28T21:49:00.003+08:00

2 more days of fasting!
hari raya is coming!

im more or less prepared.
i cant believe that i actually painted my room all by myself
wasnt really a job well dont though
actually, it was a last min thing.
didnt intend to paint my room at first.
but since there's excess after painting living room, why not?

man...i really cant wait for raya...

pity those students who have exams this coming month, like N lvl and PSLE.
all the best to them.
just look forward to raya 2009 then~
same goes to those who have to study for A's and O's.

2008-09-21T22:35:00.002+08:00

sick of all those complicated skins, with silly themes.
editted someone's skin to make it my very own simple one.
no drawings anymore.
not that anyone frequently use it anyway.
if u hate scrolling down so much, then too bad.

hope this skin doesnt create any problem for any of you.

2008-09-21T13:08:00.003+08:00

hari raya's nearing!
finally bought my baju kurung lelaki or also known as baju melayu.
it is a decent one, but im not as satisfied as last year
i really love my 07 outfit. the colour's nice. and the samping match.

i cant wait to go visiting.
i cant wait to eat eat eat, though i dont eat much.

....and i just wish that my daily life can be more fun.

i miss schooling life.
but not so much of studying.

2008-09-14T17:50:00.002+08:00

its already the 14th day of fasting.
surprisingly, the fasting period seems to be a breeze this time (so far).
i mean, it doesnt seem as slow as i predicted.

this yr's fasting mth is a new experience for me.
basically cos its the first time im fasting while working/serving the nation.
by the time i got home, its almost breaking fast time.
past few years, fasting while schooling had some troubles.
i rmb, while in sec sch, i had to watch the chinese eat during lunch.
sometimes even had to follow them to eat at fast food restaurants.
there were times when temptations overcame me.

16 days to hari raya.
havent exactly done any shopping and my room is in a mess.
even though my bro gonna bring us shop at JB nx weekend, im not expecting much there.
i just hope i'll get a decent baju raya this year that i can wear and be proud of it.

and yea, having to work on 2nd day of raya really sucks.
i can foresee the trouble of waking up in the morning.

2008-08-25T23:27:00.003+08:00

wow.
shutterfly.com has changed alot.

anyway, fadilah's friend(and others who are interested or kpo enough),
the fireworks photos are up at my shutterfly
http://www.sahirulaidil.shutterfly.com/
there's also the link under acquaintances, my photo album.

if you think the photos aint that nice, well, im no professional photographer.

loving the website even more.
heeeeeeeee.

2008-08-24T01:19:00.007+08:00

history repeated itself.
li jia wei has to settle for 4th once again.
china is just to strong for her.
oh well....

anyway, this weekend is a great one for me.
out everyday to meet up with friends and family.
though tiring, it is definitely worth the time spent.

cos of the post ndp fireworks thingy at marina bay which happen on 2 days, i get to meet up with 2 diff grp of friends.

rushed home from work on friday to have a quick shower n a change of clothes.
met up with css mates. its something like different cliques combined.
here are the people that went:
(L-R) me, jongling, kat, yaolun

ruiming, yaolun

yuetfeng, silvia, jongling, me

jong, me, yuet, sil and yao were css bandmates.
kat was from css band also, but quitted halfway.
jong, me n ming were classmates.
kat, me, yao, ming and sil were pjc 1st 3 mth ppl.
yuet n ming are nyp mates. both in mass comm.
we were all from COMMONWEALTH SECONDARY.
you get it?? everyone knows each other, but might not be in same clique
smth like that.

most of them have changed.
dress better, look better.
and im so glad yuetfeng joined us.
its been a long time since i met her.
and its v hard to ask her out.

as for saturday (ytd), met up with classmates of pioneer.
only 5 were present though.
(L-R) heeyang, eugene, me, cheewai, fadilah.

and fadilah's friend joined us too. (the one that tooked the photo)

we stood up for almost 2 hrs cos the ground were too wet for us to sit.
but the fireworks were abit better than the prev day.
everyone didnt even care bout the rain. all were too excited bout the fireworks.

having went for the prev day gave me the idea of taking this photo.

thanx to the indian family on friday who took this kind of photo in front of us.
it looked abit like wallpaper though.

and later going dinner with the whole paternal family.

fuuhh....love this kind of weekend!
but if only there's no work the whole week after.

and nx wkend wont get to be like this, i guess.
i still have my jps peeps to meet up with.
WHEN??!! =)
everyone's busy.
maybe, lets continue our countdown gathering.

countdown to fasting month: 7 more days.

2008-08-21T20:35:00.002+08:00

go li jia wei!!
doing us proud once again will be very sweet~
who knows we might even get a holiday cos of another medal?

life's so mundane now.
every weekday is the same
work is so dreadful that i have to drag myself out of bed every morning.

oh yea, btw, 108th recruits have just passed out.
im 106th intake.
2 intakes have passed.
2 intakes nearer to my ORD date
urgh...still a long way to go actually~

im longing to do some sports, particularly cycling.
hongyu......................................................

2008-08-13T20:07:00.002+08:00

i thought, never will i forget a person's face or even names
from my own friends way back in primary school to friends of my siblings.
then there was this guy at cda's canteen who seemed familiar.
and he gave me that 'hey you look familiar and im trying to recall you' look when he saw me.
but i just ingored.
haha.
i overestimated my memory.
or is it everybody looked so darn familiar to me, even though i dont know them.
hmm....

i was 'nagging' at my cousin about his homework.
he kept watching tv and playing his psp instead of doing them whenever he's at my house.
then i realised.
i miss doing homeworks.
esp doing them while listening to muttons (987fm) all the way till2am.
hah. but i know i'll hate it when school starts, IN 2 YEARS TIME!

2008-08-09T20:39:00.002+08:00

happy birthday singapore.

life has been quite boring.
every weekday was spent doing the same thing.
weekends wasnt exciting enough.
life hasnt been meaningful.
c'mon, i need excitement!!

it's been some time since i last watched a movie in cinema.
no time la, cinema full la, ppl cant make it la.

and i feel like going cycling.
i miss those night cycling times.

2008-07-10T20:21:00.003+08:00

ok.im actually lazy to blog bout my malaysia trip already cos it seemed like an outdated story.
so, here's just smth brief abt it. and some pics

its a week holiday to northern malaysia.
more specifically: penang, kedah (+langkawi) and perlis
stayed at aunt's place in kedah.

7 days seemed long to me at first. but actually, it isnt enough.
probably cos of the dreadful feeling of going back to work.
my days there were....not that GREAT!, but good enough.
good enough to make me not think about singapore (esp work/ns)
i didnt really enjoy the places that we went, but the accompaniment of my cousins made it great.
if not for my malaysian cousins, i dont think we, the singaporean cousins, would get to go out at night to shopping centres, bowling alleys, k-lounge, etc. and only to go back home after midnight.

so, here's the pics:

1) at langkawi.

2) on ferry on the way to pulau pinang.

3) in some cave in perlis.

4) somewhere in kedah.

u see that big rock on the left? we use it as slides.
and unlucky me landed my butt on a smaller rock and the pain lasted throughout the whole trip.

5) on some mountain in kedah, thousands of feet above the ground.
we went up by cars.

6) karaoke-ing.

7) the cousins. more specifically, the older cousins. (and a niece)
take a guess, who's singaporean and who's not.

there. finally.

oh, and we, the cousins, are planning to go KL, on our own, at the end of the year.
man....i cant wait!!

anyway, that day, when i was sending a patient to a hospital, i met one of the paramedics in alex firestation.
he told me that they are short of medics and offered if i wanted to go back there, even tho he didnt have the power.
but, he said he will tell the pm oic about it.
well, of course i said yes to the offer.
even though i dont really hate medical centre now, but i miss station life.
i miss the action of station life.
you know what, till now, i still cant decide which is the path that i would choose, if im given the chance to choose again.
like, station is definitely more enriching and fulfilling.
but, i've somehow adapted to medical centre and is afraid of changes.
furthermore, i dont think i'll go back to the same rota if i were to go back to station.
im not really hoping to go back though. cos i know the chances of it happening is very slim.
but i guess for now, if i were to really be given the options, my choice wld be to go back.

by the way, the new intake of medics have finally passed out.
im no longer THE JUNIOR of medical centre.
like finally i have someone who is one intake after me.
one intake less to ORD.
hahahahahahah.
ord is a very long way to go.
exactly 17 months left. thats 1 year and 5 months.

and i have to take ippt this tues.
like, wtf!
didnt even train even since recruit time.
totally gonna screw this ippt.

haiz....ns suck la huh!

2008-06-29T19:23:00.001+08:00

hey yo!
finally my comp is back!
lots to say, but no time today.

well....gonna post an entry bout my trip to northern malaysia when i have the time.
im just too tired now and lack of sleep.
was at mandai on saturday night till 3+am the nx day.
and cousin's wedding today.
shagged ahhh.
work tmr.....sian ahhh.

2008-06-08T23:24:00.002+08:00

just a short one before i make myself asleep (by watching euro08: austria vs croatia)

not saying that soccer puts me to sleep, though it does sometimes
its just that i dont think the match is worth watching
i wanna watch germany vs poland but then its too early in the morning. gotta work tmr.
but the group with all matches worth watching is group
the group with the most 'better' groups.
whatever it is, for euro08, im supporting germany and spain. more of spain. lol
GO SPAIN!

the past week was quite dull
nth interesting happened.
and i predict this coming week gonna be the same too.
just that new recruits will be enlisting this tues.
maybe a lil bit busier that last week thats all.
but i dread the fact that im stationed at first aid post(fap) twice this week. AGAIN.

met up with the class guys on saturday (fadilah joined for dinner though)
dinner was at popeyes @ flyer
i dunno for what fuck i suggested popeyes and we ended up all the way at flyer for it.
but, it was nice being SO CLOSE to flyer.
when will i be in the capsule? anyone wanna invite me to ride flyer?

went over to dempsey after that.
cool place lar. first time there. didnt even know such place exist.
maybe im not cool enough (or rich enough) to hang around there.
and for the first time i had BnJ smooties. and it wasnt that heavenly.
should have just bought their ice cream. or maybe buy a tub home.
ahh...now i feel like having strawberry cheesecake!

soon, the recruit of tekong gonna POP.
seems like only last mth they enlisted.
and they're gonna have arn 10 days of leave after that.
why didnt i have that after i POP??
freakin 10 long days lar. wtf.
10 days to make u feel u're not serving the nation.

urgh. speaking of NS, i actually survived 6 mths of NS already.
fast eh?? it's like a quarter of NS life gone.
3/4 more to go. WOW!
cant wait to get out actually.
not that NS still suck as much as it was when i was a recruit, but NS took so much of time that limits my social life.
the time i have out of it isnt enough!
i have families. i have friends.
and what if i were to have a girlfriend too? (lol.)

haha. enough of crappings.
actually i got nth to blog about.
all the above are just to make up an entry.

btw, my comp's going to 'its hospital' this tues.
its not in its best of health.
meaning, wont be online for quite sometime.
and, i'll be away in Kedah from sat(14th) for 7 days.
so, i'll be quite uncontactable.

see you all soon.

2008-05-31T18:46:00.002+08:00

how come its so easy for me to get sick?
was sick AGAIN on thurs-fri
lucky i took half day on thurs, and that i fell sick only after i reached home.
quite funny though.
felt feverish ONLY after i woke up from afternoon nap, and only felt like lying down all the way till night time.
but the panadols i took did make me feel better by the next day.

better, but not fully recovered
the cough is worse, but temperature normal.
headaches
body weak
didnt want to report sick at first but my in-charge kinda forced me to.
as expected, i only got medicines. no time-off or whatever.
lol, a waste of page in my docket.

temperature was normal...but only until i reached home.
like, wtf la. temperature high again.
at home is time for me to enjoy, get ppl to go out with me or smth.
but i have to lie on bed and rest.

anyway, my one mth probation has dued.
i feel like asking my doctor if im a permanent there already.
but what if he ask whether i want to go back station?
what do i tell him then?
but i do wish to go back to station onetwo. and only station onetwo.
haiz...........

and some ppl are really getting on my nerves.